im super tired! my whole body is aching and so is my thumb. stupid mug. i went to touch the edges. see if its really chipped. and indeed it is. and now my thumb got a cut. -.-
but even so, im very happy today =D

went to school. and i was somewhat early. AGAIN. i don't wanna be early can? as in not too early!! anw, reach school at about 730. shawn was there. so said morning to him and played PSP with songs blasts in my ears =x anw, played pokemon in PSP and im so loving it. my squirtle evolved okay! so kewl xD but i only have 2 pokemons. oh well. after some time, karthik and ashraf came. =D then, waited for sherr. and she was pretty moody in the morning =x. idk how to do with moody people. and im really afraid to approach them. so walked to t635 for maths lesson. then maths was okay i guess. i was like err couldnt really catch up with her. i copied watever she writes on the board. and tonight i needa figure it myself.

i hope you go online tonight.

then java was next and she was like talking about the operations and such. chatted with daniel for a while before he left for school. sherr told me about her birthday presents. she saw the rabbit that the class [ which ashraf & karthik ] chose was about $14 or so. i dont know. i was the one who asked them to buy that since they couldnt decide what to buy for sherr. haha. then 10 mins break in between of java lesson. told sherr im hungry and we set off to cafe. =x ohs! before that, sherr and I went over to ashraf's and karthik's place. she wanted to thank them for the rabbit. just then we both realised, ashraf grew taller! i mean its like tall okay!! i have to look up to talk to him when he's beside me. oh well, maybe i didnt wear heels that much. but even so, he's still tall. =))

then me and sherr went to cafe. i bought chocolate muffin while sherr bought black pepper puff. we ate all the way to class. i didnt finish my muffin. i still somewhat continued eating it in class =x but the teacher doesnt seem to mind. oh well. lesson continued and such and breaks of 5 mins or 10 mins happen.

looked at u in between classes. hoping u didnt see. but sometimes our eyes met, i turned away and found myself smiling and blushing.caught u twice. is that a good sign?

java ended at 1230. meeting mum at clementi straight after class. so, me,sherr,ashraf and karthik walked to the MRT station together. karthik and sherr took train. while me and ashraf went down the escalator to the bustop.

you asked with whom im doing the crs assignment with. i said with shawn. told u, u were lucky to get to do with karthik and its not fair. u said its nt for u to choose. but oh well. the way u talk and smile makes me blush. urgghh!! u asked what bus im taking. told you im taking any bus that goes to clementi station. you smiled and u said u were meeting ur mum. and u were like saying "yes mom okay! mom!" u know how i always disturb u by saying u always meet up with ur girlfriends. hahx. u called ur mum and no answer and u said something about ur sis. then u asked if there's any bus from dover to jurong point. i said no. actually there is but u have to take 154 after that. i got tongue-tied somehow =x then u said u took the train instead. and u left and said see ya to me. i replied see ya to you. while waiting for the bus, i kept looking at the escalator up to the mrt platform. looking out for u. then i saw u. u were looking at my direction. i think u saw me looking. and i knew it so thats why i looked away and smiled. but probably u didnt see me smile because u cant see far. thats why u needed specs for. oh well. is that some sort of a sign? i cant help but starting to like u. shhh.... only sherr knows....let it stay this way. at least for now. hope to know u better first....

took 147 to clementi and there was mum. waiting for me. lol. we went to have lunch first. ate at the pondok abang thingy or something. i ate the mi wanton. dried one without the chili. and it does taste nice. the soup has somesort of pepper-ish taste. but overall it tastes nice. then after we're done, we went to look around at the shops and such. bought a mascara. and its long lash mascara. not waterproof. if its waterproof, idk how the hell im gonna remove it w/o make up remover =x hahax. so yeah after that asked mum paid for my glue and nivea spray. haha. and she doesnt realise it somehow =x oh well. she paid for me so im totally fine with it. then mum bought shirts and pants for my nieces and nephew. she bought for me this nice coat. but ended up the sleeves were kinda short =( so i have no idea what to do with it now. i still havent get myself a full set of office wear in case i need it for gems one day. or even any of my presentations this term. its gonna look so weird if i have to wear it on friday when im having gems. its like, ill be the weird looking office girl in class. how i wish i could wear normal clothes first. but oh well. will get one suit soon. =D

anw, then went to look for shoes. well more like slippers. wanted to buy flippy-floppy. mum didnt allow. then i somewhat like this pair of sandals. but no size =( oh well, better luck next time. and ive just realised i havent wear heels for the past 2 days or so. wondering why? oh well its because my heels are in terrible shape. as in the below part. and its uneven. so i needa find a cobbler to help fix my heels. then i can wear it. i know i have about.. 4 shoes needs the heels to fix. and one pair of shoes to fix the heels is like $3. lol $12 gone just like that. oh well. ill find a way to fix all of them. for now, i needa fix my brown heels and my black pointed heels and my white mary-janes. oh well. soon okay? soon. =D

went home after that and tried the mascara and it look so nice!!! i mean it makes my eye lashes longer!!! ive been wanting to find those type of mascara!!! and im so love it. except, i could put on the right side perfectly fine. but the left side looks kinda weird. oh well. gonna try wearing it tomorrow morning if im not rushy. wwait. i try to get myself rushy =x anways. long blog today. legs are in pain as i went to chase karthik and ashraf with sherri yesterday. climbing up the stairs could simply makes me wanna cry!! hahax. oh well. please go away cramps tmr!

thats all for now. needa do tutorial 2b. oh yea. library duty tmr. i forgot =x

hope to be standing next to you again tmr and see you smile. and also hope to see you online tonight.

Thursday, October 30, 2008 16:08 back to top?

happy birthday sherr!!

phew. just finished updating the profile & pictures in friendster. and im so so tired.

anw let me recall of what day it is today.
in short, its: wet & hot day.
well.
came early today. and i was like super early. idk why. maybe its the bus. came at the right time. together with the train. no as much people as usually? maybe. im not sure about that. so anw, reached school at about 724. and i was like urggghh... told ashraf or thik to come early. ashraf said he did came early. but he met his friend first. they both then met up at the high chair at about 745. saw u walking down the staircase and while walking towards hilltop. shocking to see you wearing a white tshirt. so rare =x anw. i think u didnt see me somewhat. anw, thik came and we were discussing where to put the cake and such. its not possible for me to carry the cake all around right? neither nor the guys. lol. so we went to ask the uncle at the cafe to help us keep the cake instead. hahx.

lesson was as usual actually. fundamentals elec in the morning and it was like so easy =x i mean we only do it in less than an hour or so. wth right? hahax. ohs and me and sherr went to have "marker-writing" fun just now. hahax. sherr wanted to draw whiskers on ashraf face! lol. but instead, she only write "ashraf meow" on his right arm. LOl! and whole day she was like "ashraf! meow" lol. karthik got a "k" letter in a box on his right hand. i got a "N" on my right-hand wrist. lol! anw, the marker was erasable. so yeah. xD ashraf suffered the most though. sherr warns him. if he would to erase, she really gonna draw the whiskers. aww pity him =x

since we finished early for fund elec, we decided to slack around at moberly. got sherr a card at bookshop. stupid ashraf didnt distract her from going to bookshop! haha. oh well she knew it all along anw. then after thik went photocopying lab3 for networking ess, sherr,me,ash,thik,eshton,jon, hein heads to moberly. wanted to go inside and enjoy free aircon but not open yet. oh well, so we sat outside and chatted about idk what. haha. then me and sherr went to buy lunch at fc3. we ate the chicken talk chicken rice. aww yummmmm..... then went to ate at moberly. the benches near the stage. nice place to have lunch though. xD

then after that, we went to class for networkin ess. we did some router thingy.. then ping to your network then try pinging to other network and such. it was pretty okay. oh and i somewhat backstabbed the guys =x hahax. actually i got a plan to pour sherr with waterbottle. but i went to support sherr's idea instead. of throwing water bomb to the guys =x especially to thik and ashraf. haha! then before we left class, sang the birthday song to sherr. haha and she practically show me her middle finger. ouch. but oh well. hahax.

then went to moberly to have her celebration and such. we sat behind the cafe. and its pretty fun and greeny. lol. got the cake, sang birthday song again then she cuts it. before that, me, minli and sherr prepared the water bomb and water gun. i was holding the water gun all along. and pose with it. must ask minli for the pic tmr xD
after sherr cutting cake, let the fun begin xD first was me and sherr took water bomb each. then ashraf and thik knew and they make a run for it. lol! then its like we ran at moberly while there's people watching lunch at moberly! lol. sherr tried throwing at thik but missed. and i gave sherr my water bomb. i just couldnt do it on ashraf =x lol we lost track of them. =S then me and sherr went back to moberly and little did she know we use her water bomb to throw back to her. lol. so me and minli tried throwing her the water bomb. but i missed. she managed to throw somewhat near me. so i got the splash. urrgghh. and its like at the back okay? my back was wet!! thank god im wearing dark color today. then we went chasing each other. and i took her water gun and get her wet instead. and she manages to get me wet also. and we both are somewhat wet. hahax. had fun. love it =D

after we cleared our things and such. sherr went to meet her sis while i when to meet daniel. its like so weird actually. didnt see him at the cafe so i asked his friend. anw, went to cafe and took the wrong door and he was practically laughing at me. oh well. me and my silly-ness. then, went to sit at cafe with him while he waited for his food. he said i look wet. yeah i am wet! lol. then after that we walked to relax @moberly. and he transferred pokemon and ff9 for me. thanks for the games. then after he transferred, i was practically staring into space with nothing to do. i mean seriously looking around me. watching this group of girls and a guy. one of the girl and one of the guy was playing wii. lol. played bowling. i know i saw how it was played that time when, tmf went orchard. oh well. was just looking at them playing, staring at deathnote posters, looking at him, looking at people outside, people playig pool and such. okay my new pastime. staring into the environment or easily said, space. then i wanted to go off at 1400. but i just couldnt stand up and reall go off. i wanted to be there seeing him smiles and such. urrgghh. but somewaht i dont feel the pain now. good huh? xD then after the girl and guy finish playing wii, another group of students or somewhat like that went to play dvd. and its in chinese but its horror movie. i was like writing letter to dan while watching the dvd too. lol and its like scary okay! i really wanna know what story is that!! oh well, then at about 1430 or so, dan and his friend have to go. just nice. i just finished writing my letter too. so yea. fold the letter and off i went. not feeling sad because i have to go away from u. more like im feeling neutral about it.
=D

did i see u looking at me? or maybe i look at you at the wrong time? or am i just imagining things? maybe i am. i cant help but look at u sometimes. why am i feeling super happy to be near u? loves the smell of ur adidas spray. omg. much worst:why am i starting to like you.. maybe the next thing i know, you already have a gf. meow. oh well, a girl can never stop dreaming can she?
im waiting for u again mr a and idk why.....

Wednesday, October 29, 2008 16:21 back to top?

okay i randomly am sleepy but i still wanna blog.
wanted to study maths but really i cant open my eyes!

went through friendster just now and was practically dropping by comments to people i know. well more like people i miss. like rohani and liyana and dayak.

thanks liz for adding me. i try do make a facebook account soon. after all one of the articles i read just now during crs was about facebook -.- oh well. why not giving it a try.

i decided to post some random pictures. at least its not too borrrinng and dull.
so yeah here it goes.


me and my mr yellow door. i just love this pic somewhat. despite of the messy hair =x


okay. that smile on my face is real okay! as in i dont really fake smiles. okay wait. i do fake smiles but i totally suck at it. oh well. im happy so my pictures turn out okay somewhat too xD but still, messy hair.

its 10 and im off to bed now.
idk why but i cant help waiting for u, mr a.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008 21:53 back to top?

oh wow.
i had a great day today. thanks sherr for the advice and such. xD

my morning was extremely fine. xD took bus to school. and bus was early! so lucky day. then went to school and it feels to be in the other side of the bustop than usual xD met sherr in school and i didnt realise she was sitting at the auditorium staircase =x sorry sherr.
we had breakfast at cafe. i mean its been 2 weeks since i last went there! oh well. i had the white and black chocolate chips brownies. it so hott and its sooo nice and melted. omg. *drools* anw sherr bought lasagne. after i finished my brownies, i bought ice lemon tee. i rmbred everything about u when i was at the cafe. urgh. so anyway. i didnt think too much about u today. and i feel like im getting numbness when people talk about u infront of me or even when i chatt with u. oh well. i got my mind on something else now. =D

anw, crs was pretty fine today. except there was lotx of articles to read. and im like lost with the words they used in those articles. i needa start getting myself to learn new words all over again. then it was like topic, issue, stand, details. oh my i totally forgot how to do argumentative. i know i rock at it in sec 3 and 4. but sec 5 i started to do narratives. lol. and the argumentative now is like so general. i needa start reading newspapers soon =x soon. but not now. i wanna finish my storybooks first xD then it was break time after that. didnt eat. only drank honeydew. and i tried sherr's avocado. got milky taste! =x then we decided to sit infront of t945. and we're like talking about guys in general. while there's this group of chinese guys playing psp one floor below us. and of course they heard what we said. oh well. girls talk are the best xD

at about 1 plus or so, went to class with the rest. sat the front and i was trying to stay awake by stuffing myself with that sweet. i forgot whats the name. oh well, idk what to do during her lesson. its like she zooms so fast. and i pity ashraf and karthik and the others who wanted to write notes but couldnt catch up. i did mine. and SHERR CALLED ME A NERD okay!!! lol. she was somewhat spamming the word "NERD" during fundamental elec. tutorial. lol.


anw, tmr's sherr birthday! wahahahahahaha... just u wait sherr. xD gonna be another happy day tmr xD should i bring extra clothing too? since she said she gonna bring water bomb with colored wateer. aaaaa!! i dont wanna get wet. meeting u tmr for the games xD and im gonna chat with u for a lil while. i dont wanna go home early on wednesdays anymore nowadays. oh well. maybe i should go imm with sherr during one of the wednesdays, then idk stay in school stone or study in library and really become a nerd! hahx. aite im off to my work now. i have no idea what to do now but ill find something to do. see ya xD
19:43 back to top?

im should blog properly now. oh well here it goes.
and i kept saying the phrase "oh well" a lot nowadays! got addicted from you =x
anw, chatted with you in the afternoon. and i came out with my own sentence.
"the person who makes me sad is the person who makes me happy". yes its u. you said im direct. oh well, thats me. =D
you want me to be less clingy? yes i will try to be. thanks for giving me a month to fully get over you. im sure ill be feeling better after a month of our break up. ouch. the word break up hurts =x
went out with parents this morning. first to jurong west, to have breakfast. its not fair. i couldnt wake up late today! and below my eyes, its pretty dark. =( not enough sleep. i should get more sleep nowadays. since after all, ive got nothing to cry on now. anw, ate mee rebus. im nt really in favour of me rebus actually but idk why but thats the first thing that came in my mind when dad asked "what do u want to eat?" i guess me rebus reminds me of u. oh and last week, ate me siam with sherr. then she didnt eat the egg yolk like u did. i asked sherr "you didnt eat egg yolk?"
then she said "yea?" then i was like "oh. reminds me of dan. he didnt eat it too cox he said its high in colestral"[or however u spell it] i cant help but to keep thinking about u. urgghhh.. oh well.
then after had breakfast, my parents and I went to look around for some lock thing that dad needs. mum bought me a blue umbrella and a yellow toothbrush =x im into bright colors nowadays. im beginning to love orange and yellow. hahx. happy bright colors =D after dad got his lock thingy. we took bus to imm. at imm, went to popular. bought files for gems and maths. blue and white. my bestest favourite colors. how i wish there's yellow and orange files. is there? hahax. then went to mini toons. trying to find for a handphone charm. and i found once actually. silvery in color. then when i went to pay, i saw alphabetical kind of charm! and im like so happy i found the letter N! its been soo long ive been looking for letter N. yay and its soo diamond-yy looking. then after that went to look for rings. well im looking for a one "diamond" kind of ring. wanted to buy from Heart-to-heart. but maybe later. im afraid to use it for everyday use. so i ended up being one ring from Aries. and im wearin the ring now. except that on my right hand. it feels weird wearing it on my left after i took out ur ring....
oh well, tmr school's start again. im not gonna study tonight. weekends study, do notes. im still looking for bags for my gems homework. finding office wear that u think you might wear. found the clothes and make-ups. but bags and accesories not yet. well see ya. probably going school at 8 tmr. maybe meeting sherr. maybe not? but if she doesnt meet me. maybe ill stone in library =D see ya..
note to ownself: dont blog about her.
Monday, October 27, 2008 19:39 back to top?

IM OFFICIALLY ADDICTED TO THE BAND "THE ACADEMY IS"
Im like practically reading through the lyrics one by one while the song is blasting in my ears right now.
and im like so in love with the song : [not in any order of preference] xD
#1 About A Girl
#2 Summer Hair Forever Young
#3 His Girl Friday
#4 Rumuored Nights
#5 Automatic Eyes
And his favourite song is Rumoured Nights. even though its somewhat reminds me of her. well who cares? thanks for making me addicted =X

oh well, wanna try out Java Tutorial xD
see ya
Sunday, October 26, 2008 19:51 back to top?

phew. what a happy & tiring morning.
bro's family stayed over for the night. as in yesterday night. i pretty had much fun playing with my AMIRUL xD well, my nephew Amirul. not that Amirul -.-

went online at about 9 yesterday. chatted with daniel and he told his friend Azri about us breaking up. he said that his friend somewhat disagree. well i think everyone disagreed that we broke up. it was something that no one has ever expected. but what can we do about it? its impossible for us to be together due to the fact that we have a very large background difference. i remembered those words daniel. "if we're not meant to be, then we're not meant to be". Daniel thinks that me and his friend are perfect match for each other. wait. he didnt think. he believes. i somewhat believed in his hunches. most of his bad hunches came true. as for now, he has good hunch than me and his friend are fine with each other. well, i barely know him.oh well, i dont mind getting to know new people i guess.

hmm. bro's family gonna stay over next week again all the way to next year JAN. sis got a job at JP and so my mum gonna helped take care of my nieces + nephew. as for me, im okay with it i guess. school work and such still has to be done at night. me going online at 7 all the way till 10 will remain. no choice. im really trying to do well.

-.- i wanted to write dan but instead i nearly type dear.
anw, dan is still waiting for her. i wonder.... how happy he is gonna be if she chooses him. omg why am i talking about her in my blog. but whatever happens, i always want to see you happy daniel. even if im nt as happy as u are myself. i guess thats what my name is all about. Norlin. Light. making people around me happy while i try to pretend im happy. i guess thats really how i am. soft. too soft indeed. bubbly.direct.straight.caring.soft.spoilt.materialistic. those are the words that you decribe me. 3 years of knowing me. hahx.

oh and u got me totally addicted with the band The Academy is.
yay tmr's holiday xD needa continue and finish up with my networking essentials notes and my gems homework. havent flip through mags in ages =x oh well, i needa continue with my notes and also find new games for my psp. our picture is still in my psp background. together with the keychain that i bought for you at hilltop. i wonder where do u throw them. lol.

oh well, thats all. see ya xD
10:51 back to top?

just finished breakfast and im feeling very very extra unusual these days.

idk why but i felt like vomiting nowadays. HECK no im not pregnant! i didnt even sleep with anyone! and together with no mens yet. this is really scaring me damn bad.

hmm then, every morning i woke up. idk why but i felt like as if its a MUST for me to read ur blog. eventhough i get upset when i read what u blog about her. i cant help but getting upset just by mentioning the word "her". but oh well, ill get over it somehow/sometime though. but hey, at least he mention we chatted in msn xD

today is 25. haish i wish i could wish him. "Happy 3y6m anniversary dear. love you lotx and forever." i always wish him in advance or early in the morning. well, i guess i can never wish him anymore. its okay =D i just need time.

i found myself very very busy nowadays. its like Sherr and Dan could still have time to watch anime/read manga/play psp/games. but i just cant do it. the things that i find myself doing when im free is reading my book and blogging and chatting with Sherr and Dan while im either doing my advanced tutorial for Fund Elec/networking Ess, or adv reading for maths/java/Fund Elec/networkg ess, or do notes on java/netwkg ess/fund elec + gems homework + organise my file for my maths and gems. yeah lotx of things to do. i MUST DO BETTER THAN DAN THIS SEM! =X must get A for Java and maths =S

oh thanks Daniel for teaching me maths yesterday. if you need any help on your website assignment, ill be glad to help. and no worries i wont suggest you with girly designs xD

OH AND I CANT WAIT TO WATCH HSM3!!!!!!!!!!! IT PREMIERS YESTERDAY =S I WANNA WATCCCHHHH!!!

oh well, maybe a week or 2 from now then i can watch with my bro's fam =D
im off now. see ya =D
Saturday, October 25, 2008 10:56 back to top?

here I am bloggin =D
and I have the song "7 things I Hate About you by Miley Cyrus" stuck in my head everywhere I go.
well, I feel like posting the whole lyrics here. together with the comments xD


I probably shouldn't say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we shared
It was awesome but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care

And now we're standing in the rain
But nothings ever gonna change
Until you hear, my dear

The 7 things I hate about you
The 7 things I hate about you, oh you

Chorus:
You're vain - not true about you.
Your games - still not true.
You're insecure - so not true!
You love me you like her -somewhat true last time.
You made me laugh, you made me cry -TRUE!
I don't know which side to buy -true -True xD
Your friends they're jerks when you act like them -im not sure about this.
Just know it hurts
I want to be with the one I know -TRUEE!
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you -yes very true.

It's awkward and silent as I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now is your sincere apology - nope i dont need this.
When you mean it I'll believe it
If you text it I'll delete it -nope ill never delete your message xD
Let's be clear
Oh I'm not coming back -err maybe? it takes time.
Your taking seven steps here

CHORUS

Compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention the 7 that I like

The 7 things I like about you
Your hair -Yes i do like your wig hair =x
Your eyes -your brown eyes.
Your old Levi's - i dont use ur Levi's.
When we kiss I'm hypnotized -yeap. true xD

You make me laugh, you make me cry -yeap. you always do xD
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy -yeap. i guess thats fine =D
Your hands in mine when we're intertwined
Everything's alright -yeap!
I want to be with the one I know

And the 7th thing I like the most that you do
You make me love you -yes its true....



hmm yeah. so thats about it. let me blog about what happened today.
oh it was such a gloomy day. not gloomy as in sad day. gloomy as in the weather. i was somewhat fine in the morning =D send him a sms of what ive thought about yesterday night. thanks daniel. hmm saw you in the morning xD i was early so I was somewhat waiting to see you and also Sherr. then maths lesson was in the morning. it was like. err the teacher was teaching about inverse A or something like that. I could understand the front part of matrix. once it goes to the multiplication part. i simply got lost! hahax. then during Tutorial, went fly over to sit with Karthik and Ashraf. hahx. then oh yea got suprise test okay! like WTH? first test was about determinants. 3 questions 20 mins. got mix up with Sarrus Rule & Cramer's Rule. both seems so similar!!! hahx. then 2nd test, 4 questions 20 mins. its like about matrix and about the singular matrix where the determinant is equal to 0. im like so lost. i copied Karthik's =x but thank god the second tests was just like somewhat open for discussion. as in you can discuss with ur friends or refer. im trying to do. but i couldnt catch up with the timing. the last time I was supposed to do maths with a given time was when I was having tuition in p6 under my block. my teacher was like kept wanting everyone to do fast and accurate. so damn similar like my maths teacher now. -.- at least for POA, i can somewhat do it =D
okay so anwyays. after the tests, we have to do Tutorial 2a 5 questions for 30 mins. -.- so difficult and i kept getting stuck with the multiplying part. im like dont know when i multiply the thing i dont know it belongs to the side or below of it. okay im not making sense here. maybe i can ask dan for maths advice.
then finish the lesson, we had lunch. me and sherr ate Mee Siam. xD and drank watermelon juice. yummmmyyyy =D then after that, we went to library. i decided to do library duty. its been so long since i did my library duty. feels pretty weird doing it. i was doing arranging of DVDs. and i just realised the place where they put the "just returned DVD", the changed the opposite side. it was supposed to be on the 1st and 2nd row of the shelf on the right but they shift it to the left. oh well. after duty, went to meet sherr at the study areas in lib. then we went to toileett and walked up to 4th floor. accompanied her outside her Gems class. at about 1350, i went down to my class. and idk why but i found myself waiting to see you.
anw, Gems class was great xD. did measurements. and im so freaking short okay? 158 cm =x never even grew one inch -.- please! i wanna be at least 160 cm tall!
oh and i met a friend who was my partner for the measurement activity. her name is Gladys. im not so quite sure how to spell her name. and we somewhat had fun. lol. she's like way taller than me and she wore heels too xD hahx! okay then lesson ended and took bus home. oh ya. i have a GEMS homework. i have to read through the next chapter and also, i have to... find clothes that I find in magazines which might suits me. mostly i think professional wear. hmm ill do it during the weekends or Monday. yay Monday is a holiday.
please daddy and mummy! pplease let me wake up a lil later than usual!
hmm anw, took bus home and it was somewhat jam when I was in the bus to clementi. -.-
then reached home, chatted with daniel xD much happier when i chat with you and i cant find the reason why....... anw, i guess im done blogging for now xD see ya!
Friday, October 24, 2008 18:26 back to top?

second entry of the day. ive been blogging a lot lately. yeah i know. lots of things are in my mind and I cant seem to stop thinking about it until I finally let it out to blog. so yeah pardon me for all my complains. well anyway its my blog. im free to say what i want right?
so yeah i was having breakdown just now and i felt totally aweful. its like i feel like smashing the mirror, punch the wall scream and shout. but i ended up crying because i was just so upset with myself. stupid? yeah i know. then went to talk on the phone with sherr. and felt much much better. thanks sherr! then went to sms daniel. and i felt double the better. at least both of them are still there when I need them. but of course, they cant be with me all the time. one thing that stuckk in my mind when I was talking to sherr was that. "Make yourself happy?" how do I make myself happy all over again? things that makes me happy is always about him. i never exprienced being happy without him. at home i mean. not in school.
asked him one question. if him and her were to stead? will she ever take care of daniel as how i took care of him? well he said yea. but i guess its gonna be different.... so much different..... i dont know what else to say. and i cant bear to imagine if she touched daniel....... wth am i gettting upset over this again...
urgh!!!!
Thursday, October 23, 2008 21:06 back to top?

Im in school now and Im SUPER early. well probably because i got a good night
sleep yesterday. and i guess im feeling better about those things about, me, dan and her.
you explained lots of things to me. and im very grateful for that. im happy as there
was really something that i have and she doesnt. my direct approach when we're
having an arguements and how it ended quickly. i thought u hated it as u said it always end too fast and the problem is still there but its just not fully solved yet.
well, u wanted a complex love and i couldnt give that to u. i know i couldnt because
im just not like u. i couldnt see through u. but u very well could see through me.
i guess thats the most important thing that makes us not able to be with each other.
talked about our memories yesterday huh? i miss those times and i know i couldnt get
any of it anymore. what i can do now is just dream of it.
got to know that ur dad's having a bbq huh? and ure inviting her. i guess you should.
probably ur mum will like her more than how she liked me. im just a friend. i guess
as a friend, i want u to be happy. even when im not. no matter how hard i try to be happy. i just cant. i guess thats just the soft spot. i really cant do anything about it.
thanks for all the advice that u gave it to me. yes i might not understand it now. im not sure if i can understand it later myself. u maybe waiting for her. but somewat unconditionally, im waiting for u too...... i hope you wont be bias.

when u dont need me, ill wait. when u need me, ill be there

im back at home and im practically staring into space. im like supposed to do my maths but i cant concentrate. i wanna cry for no reason but i cant cry. i wanna scream i wanna shout. my mind is seriously not here. idk why but im falling over you all over again. idk why the feeling is here again. help me! i cant concentrate. lessons in the morning was okay. maths was pretty fine. but when it comes to Java, my mind was just not there. i never fell asleep in class before. but just now, i just couldnt help it but to nearly fell sleep. seriously i cant concentrate today. now im like supposed to do my maths tutorial. did one question then i stopped and stare infront of me. waiting for Amirul to chat or maybe waiting for u to go online again. u went online and i was somewhat complaining. then u left. okay u went back online.. anw, my main point is I CAN'T CONCENTRATE!!. never have i ever lost my concentration till this bad. omg. wth is wrong with me? shit i suddenly remembered. our 3 and half years together this saturday. wth am i still rmbring it. do u still rmbr it? im sleepy but i cant sleep.i feel like doing nothing at all. but when im doing nothing, i will get very irritated. -.- zzzz what the hell is wrong with me........
07:46 back to top?

second posts of the day.
im angry at myself for stopping daniel. i just couldnt help it.
im trying so hard not to be clingy but i just cant. i fall hard..... and i seriously
don't know how to stand up and walk. even if i did start walking and smiling and
laughing like nobody's business, there's still part of me that makes me stay at one
spot. damn why must i be so clingy. i was so used to being told what to do by u. and
now when u left, im totally in a massive mess. i dont know whats right whats wrong.
as in i do know the normal right and wrong. but somethings, i think im right but im
actually wrong. u helped me so much. and im so lost. and im so miserable. u said
if im worst, there's someone more worst than myself. yeah true. i should start thinking about people huh? not mourning and stayed at the ground. norlin. stand up norlin. stop being clingy fgs! stand up and start walking properly!!! change urself
to be a better person. tomorrow im gonna start. yes i am.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008 19:32 back to top?

im mad im pissed im tired.

met up with Amirul in the morning. he told me to come early because his lessons
starts at 8. so i woke up early. thanks to dan, i couldn't sleep yesterday. -.-
ended up, Amirul was late and I waited for him at Bukit Batok MRT instead.
It was so pack when we took the straight train which terminates at Pasir Ris.
and im like so not gonna meet him in the morning if he's late again.

Came to school not as early as I used to be. I was still mad at dan. i just feel
like i wanna see him and smack him and cry so much..... but i just couldnt do it.
went to class. fundamentals elec practical. i was so not in the mood for anything.
before class starts, went to toilet and practically throw everything out to
Sherr. i dont want to talk about this okay? im jealous and hurt by ur actions daniel. the way u showed concern towards about me make me lose
all my unhappiness towards u. no not that i started loving you all over again.
but its just that, im happy because u concern about me.

sherr told me to try to forget about u. but i found it hard to do so. she even
asked me one question. "when you see other couples, are you somewhat affected by
it?" i replied.. "yes somewhat. especially in school" i cant stop myself from
doing so daniel. even though i have Amirul around. its just not the same to be
with him. even if he makes me happy sometimes, but he's not there when i need him
most of the time. and probably, im guessing he's ignoring me now.i know. im trying to forget about Amirul somewhat too. i just cant seem to.... talk to him like how i talked to you, dan. although we rarely see each other but the way we talk in MSN, somehow makes me wanna rush home just to chat with u...... haish. im feeling so miserable all over again.........
17:56 back to top?

second entry of the day. i couldnt believe what ive read and see.
im just jealous. yes i cant help it. i guess ure feeling it too huh? i shouldnt be angry at her. i should be sorry instead. why am i so stupid for not realising. am i such an easy person for u to lie at? why are people lie-ing to me. i dont want to be lied fgs. i want someone who treats me well. who treats me right. and of course doesn't lie. im not over you yet. and thats final. even if amirul makes me laugh like a total idiot. something's just isnt the same. meeting him tmr morning. have to be extra early. his classes start at 8. so, i guess ill be okay. maybe? maybe not. i dont know.
i really thought im over you. but no i just cant. when ure away, im lonely. ii just dont want to be lonely. i hate being lonely. thinking about u and her makes me wanna cry. im just so super jealous. but i cant cry. i really cant. i dont know if i still love you. i have no idea about that. but the way u treat me as a friend. i guess thats fated. u told me those advice. i have to do something quick. i have to becareful. everything. i feel touched by those things u said. u totally cared about me. so i guess thats the reason why i didnt cry. its nt as if u totally forget about me. u still do show care and concern. im happy for that. thanks daniel. thanks for being my friend. im gonna treat u as my bestfriend. =D
Tuesday, October 21, 2008 20:40 back to top?

had a fun evening with Amirul yesterday.
lesson ended super early. and when i called to ask where is he, he said he just reached home. so, ended up, i met him at Bukit Batok MRT. I thought im gonna wait for him but instead he was there first. sorry! then hmm we took the train back to Lakeside and he sent me home. we chatted and such xD thanks for the day. =D

today, i decided to stayed at home. meaning Im on MC. went to the doctor's just now. and im super sick. well, sick as in not having a fever but just sick of the stupid flu and i got cough as well. terrible! so yeah all day stayed in bed. sleep,check phone, sms, talk on the phone with Amirul for a lil while =D then went to bed all over again. please get me well to go school tmr. maybe meeting him again tmr morning =D yay im loooking forward to it. im happy when im with him. and yeah hope it stayed that way. thats all for now. gonna go online again at night. see ya xD
17:49 back to top?

currently in school having networkin essentials tutorial. i did mine so, the teacher is somewhat just go through-ing it.

im very happy today.
because im wearing my brown heels and my new brown bag =D
and to add more to the happiness, went to school with Amirul today. its the first time i see him in person and he looks tall =x if i were to wear my normal shoes, ill be super short! err other than that, i guess its seems fun seeing him in person. gonna meet him after class. meaning im gona meet him at 5. he finishes at about 2 i think. which im not so sure. i finish at 5 so he's waiting for me.

i guess thats all for now.
oh and bad news. im still feeling sick. feel like its much more worst than yesterday.
couldnt sleep. stupid flu! thats all for now. see ya xD
Monday, October 20, 2008 10:14 back to top?

I had a real great weekend!

On Saturday, went on a shopping spreee. bought myself a brown coloured heels, a cute pendant and a brown bag =D and a present xD. that night, i chatted with Amirul! we chatted and webcam at the same time. and i couldnt stop myself from blushing and smiling/laughing. sometimes he would make silly faces and makes me smile so much. he seems like a nice guy though. but hey, it maybe too early for me to judge him now right? after all we just know each other for about only a day. his smiles somewhat makes me smile. and im very happy to chat with him. im like supposed to finish up my chapter 2 fundamental notes. but ended up i didnt finish because i was busy chatting with him =x
as for today, which is a Sunday, just somewhat reached home from Geylang with parents. Mum went to buy some stuffs then she got a few 30 percent vouchers to buy shoes/bag. infact she has two of the vouchers. with one voucher, i bought an ankle-strap white heels while mum bought herself a somewhat looking leather kind of shoes. dad paid for the total of the first voucher though. which costs aboout $79. =x
as for the second voucher, i bought myself a silver color shoes =)) and also an alphabet 'L' brooch. i wanted an 'N' letter but too bad. mostly malay girls names starts with N so no chance. I guess L is fine with me since my name is norLin. hehex. school starts again tmr at 8 in the morning -.- and im not feeling that well. got infected by dad. he was sick at first. then just now in the morning i was having sorethroat. after eating the vicks sweet, my sorethroat cured but im having a flu instead. ohs and i talked to amirul on the phone just now. =D while i was in the taxi home from geylang. he's been wanting to chat on the phone but my parents are always near me. so instead i gave him a short phonecall =)) well thats all for now. hoping my flu will be okay tmr or else, i dont feel like going to school at all. and probably, im metting amirul tmr xD thanks my boyfriend! [only as a friend which is a boy =D]
Sunday, October 19, 2008 14:30 back to top?

phew. finally got myself a new blog.
its gonna be weird blogging alone all over again. but well, i guess, ill get used to it.

lets start with an introduction.
miss-sunshiine. yes i want to be her. i want to be the one who put smiles on everyone's face. i used to be her last time. but after what happened last monday,i somehow couldnt be her.
i lost my appetite. i ate so little. cried myself to sleep. and i just didnt have the strength to smile at all.
i kept thinking about him. infact, i find it hard to believe everything. well, it was not my decision. and i couldnt stop him from doing so. so i guess, i have to start moving on.
i know ive cried lesser now. gratz to myself as i didnt cry yesterday. as for today,
i wanted to cry when i put on my mp3. remebering all those songs we shared together.
but no. i didnt cry. =)) well, i guess im happy as to still be his friend. we chatted almost every night. talking like how friends do. and i told him about everything that happened in class. well, i hope he doesnt mind =x
met up with him yesterday. to pass him our last neoprints. purposely gave him one extra. and i'm not so sure whether he realises it or not. but i actually did gave him two of my favourite photos. the "evil" and "omg". i wanted both. but nah. i want him to keep it =D at times, i do feel miserable. i wanted to cry. but i just couldnt do it anymore. and also, once i starts. i just cant stop. so might as well, i dont start. xD
one thing is for sure. i suck at pretending. i mean seriously. im never a good actor like he did. putting a mask for 3 years. as for me, i tried to be miss sunshiine all over again. but i just cant seem to do it. i love wearing heels and such. but for the past one week, i just wore anything that i first see. i dont bother about myself. blisters came. but it didnt hurt me as much as my heart break. well, heartbreak really sucks. and i hate it. memories are even worst. i cant seem to forget it. he did told me before that i dont have to forget them. i just have to get used to it as something new that i have to do. hard to do it but yeah im trying.
i wish to see him smile often though. he puts that -.- face everytime i sees him. probably he's tired.
well, i better stop blabbering about him and starts crying.

so, as for now. im gonna blog about my life in school and such. as from monday onwards, im gonna start wearing heels. heels never fail to make me happy xD and im gotta try to stop pretending =x im gonna be miss sunshiine. making everyone smile in my presence. including, him. =))
well i guess thats all for now ya? will soon open the blog to other friends. see ya.
Saturday, October 18, 2008 16:09 back to top?

testing 123
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