second entry of the day. ive been blogging a lot lately. yeah i know. lots of things are in my mind and I cant seem to stop thinking about it until I finally let it out to blog. so yeah pardon me for all my complains. well anyway its my blog. im free to say what i want right?
so yeah i was having breakdown just now and i felt totally aweful. its like i feel like smashing the mirror, punch the wall scream and shout. but i ended up crying because i was just so upset with myself. stupid? yeah i know. then went to talk on the phone with sherr. and felt much much better. thanks sherr! then went to sms daniel. and i felt double the better. at least both of them are still there when I need them. but of course, they cant be with me all the time. one thing that stuckk in my mind when I was talking to sherr was that. "Make yourself happy?" how do I make myself happy all over again? things that makes me happy is always about him. i never exprienced being happy without him. at home i mean. not in school.
asked him one question. if him and her were to stead? will she ever take care of daniel as how i took care of him? well he said yea. but i guess its gonna be different.... so much different..... i dont know what else to say. and i cant bear to imagine if she touched daniel....... wth am i gettting upset over this again...
urgh!!!!
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