Im in school now and Im SUPER early. well probably because i got a good night
sleep yesterday. and i guess im feeling better about those things about, me, dan and her.
you explained lots of things to me. and im very grateful for that. im happy as there
was really something that i have and she doesnt. my direct approach when we're
having an arguements and how it ended quickly. i thought u hated it as u said it always end too fast and the problem is still there but its just not fully solved yet.
well, u wanted a complex love and i couldnt give that to u. i know i couldnt because
im just not like u. i couldnt see through u. but u very well could see through me.
i guess thats the most important thing that makes us not able to be with each other.
talked about our memories yesterday huh? i miss those times and i know i couldnt get
any of it anymore. what i can do now is just dream of it.
got to know that ur dad's having a bbq huh? and ure inviting her. i guess you should.
probably ur mum will like her more than how she liked me. im just a friend. i guess
as a friend, i want u to be happy. even when im not. no matter how hard i try to be happy. i just cant. i guess thats just the soft spot. i really cant do anything about it.
thanks for all the advice that u gave it to me. yes i might not understand it now. im not sure if i can understand it later myself. u maybe waiting for her. but somewat unconditionally, im waiting for u too...... i hope you wont be bias.
im back at home and im practically staring into space. im like supposed to do my maths but i cant concentrate. i wanna cry for no reason but i cant cry. i wanna scream i wanna shout. my mind is seriously not here. idk why but im falling over you all over again. idk why the feeling is here again. help me! i cant concentrate. lessons in the morning was okay. maths was pretty fine. but when it comes to Java, my mind was just not there. i never fell asleep in class before. but just now, i just couldnt help it but to nearly fell sleep. seriously i cant concentrate today. now im like supposed to do my maths tutorial. did one question then i stopped and stare infront of me. waiting for Amirul to chat or maybe waiting for u to go online again. u went online and i was somewhat complaining. then u left. okay u went back online.. anw, my main point is I CAN'T CONCENTRATE!!. never have i ever lost my concentration till this bad. omg. wth is wrong with me? shit i suddenly remembered. our 3 and half years together this saturday. wth am i still rmbring it. do u still rmbr it? im sleepy but i cant sleep.i feel like doing nothing at all. but when im doing nothing, i will get very irritated. -.- zzzz what the hell is wrong with me........
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