ZA products are loved♥

its weekendss and i still havent start doing on my rwp :S

hmm hmm.
i dont know what to blog actually.
buttt okay let me blog my to-buy list.

hmm.
ive been taking care of my beauty nowadays.
hahax. okay im not vain okay.
i just feel like i should do something about it xD

i start with nails.
and im happy with it.
my naills are shiiinyyy XD

okay my broken toe nail still look bad.
okay not really bad. its just that it look very weird.
and soo i should really start my collection of ZA product xD

well the list actually consists of a lot of ZA make-up products.

// ZA eye make up set ~ mascara & eye curler [$19.90! but 20% off!]
= wide eye mascara in black
// ZA Concealer perfection in shade 1
// ZA pure shine lipstick in Red Coral RD3
// ZA blush vibrante in B2
// ZA True White Cleansing Foam
// ZA Metavoltage cream
// ZA True White Lotion

oh yeah
i have things i wanna buy.
but i need money.
hmm i shall try to eat less and see if i can lose more weiighhT
and alssoo i need to save moneyyyy XD

alright im done now.
i shall really start on rwp.
lols!

i miss my boyfriend already :(
sad-ed

Labels: to-buy

14:41 back to top?

1ST YEAR ANNIVERSARY♥

TODAY is like finally my first year anniversary with darling.

darling has work yesterday and that means that he will be late and such.
and so i stayed in bed for a lil while longer.
finally woke up at 8 plus and get ready to meet darling.

after 45 minutes of make-ups or so; i went out to meet darling at Clementi.

reached Clementi and i was glad to be saw him
to see him smile.
to be close to him.
darn it. i didnt know that im missing so much thing about him even though its been last two weeks since i met him :S

we went to have brunch (probably?) at clementi.
we both had wanton.
while sometimes i stopped eating, i will just sit and stare at him.
stare at him eating. okay maybe not really staring? since staring is rude.
well more like admiring him? yes. thats more like it.

after we are done we went to walk around and such. XD
all the while, all i ever wanna do at that time was to hold onto his hand.
like as if today was the last day im holding it.
i miss his hands on mind.
omg im starting to cry.

anw, we took bus to IMM then.
something happened in the bus. out of which im not gonna describe it here.
because its just too sad-ening.

then we reeach IMM, we walked around and such,

we went to daisoo xD
and thanks darling for buying stuffs for me! XD

then we both decided to go to Jurong Point next.
we too two buses.
and still things happened again in the bus.

we reach Jurong Point and we walked around.
ohs and then when we were walking around, there's this guy doing some demo on figure nails. hahax!
and i got free manicures.
well not really free u know, i have to like buy this whole set.
the buffer, the lotion and the cuticle oil.

and the whole set was at $49.90
eh u know my nails was really damn shinyy arh!
okay i pestered darling to buy the whole set for me and he kept say noo :X hahax.
itsss okaayyy. i found another solution xD

then after that we went to make our ring.
and i think that was the couple ring that i have been eyeing for quite some time.
it does cost 64 dolars per pair xD

and i love it!
we decided to put our name ridz at the top and lin at the bottom.
and its supperrr niiice xD

then then right.
since it took 1 hour for the rings to be ready, we decided to eat at swensens!
thannkss so much darling for the treat! xD

i ate fish and chips then darling ate swensens combo.
then after that we had shared ring-a-ding-a-ling ice cream! XD
i loovvee!

ohs and while we were eating darling was layaning this lil boy.
and the boy is so cutte!
like i think 1 year old plus?
and darling was like smiling at him and the baby smiiillee!
and the baby smile is like super cutee arhh!

i feel that darling is going to be a good father.
and in conclusion; DARRRLLIIINNNG LETS HAVE OUR OWN CHILDREN!
hahax!

then after that i tried on my buffer that i bought at daiso.
wow it does woorrks!
it is very shinyyy and i bought cuticle oil.
okay i didnt bought it. darling bought it for me in Sasa xD

then after we walk around for the oil, we went to take our rings.
and ii loooveee it!

then after that we went walked together.
and i like holding his hands.
i miss him.
and i really hate to be far away from him.
idk when its going to be the next time im gonna meet him.

pictures here! XD

thanks so much for the day darling.
i really enjoyed it.
thanks for the swensens treat, the rings and other stuffs.
i love you.
and i dont want to lose u.

please dont ever leave me.
happy 1st year anniversary.
insyaallah there are more anniversary to come.

Labels: anniversary♥

Thursday, January 28, 2010 18:53 back to top?

GGGYYYMMMM-TWO

wooooo my second time to gym! ♥
i am so loviingg it xD

Last week i went to gym for just five minutes!
but todayy i went to gym for an hour! eh wait. an hour and ++

first i did running on the treadmill.
i have told myself to really complete the 20 minute run.
i start myself with slow walk, medium walk then faster walk and lasly was just a jog :X
hahax oh yeahh i dont think i should run so much.
thenn near the ending, i was starting to feel giddy.
thenn the last 2 minutes, i increase my speed to the jog and after 1 minute, i slow down to fast walk. lols.
thenn after 20 minutes, i slowly stopped andd i feel giddy.

and silly me. i was still feel dizzy and i was trying my best to not even look at where i was walking.
i thought my legs was already on the floor but i realised i was still at the tip of the treadmill.
and when i move forward, i was like nearly gonna fall!
i think there we guys who were infront of the treadmill might have saw i was nearly going to fall.
lols. but i didnt even look at any of them.
i went straight to my bag to drink 100 plus.
only after that i felt a lil bit better. still oozzyy but not so bad arh. still can walk.

theen after treadmill, i went to do some exercise on the machine that is for thighs.
khai told me to do 4 sets which meansss 12 per sets.
andd i stopped arh like doing for sometime.
cause i could feel the stretch on my thighs!

theenn went to talk with janessa XD
and she told me some tips too.
showed me how to do on some machines.
thankkks jan :D

then i did this idk what the machine is called.
where i have to pull this "somewhat" weight to my shoulders.
i did 12 i think xD

then i tried on dumbells.
jan showed me how to do wit it.
oh yeahh the stretch was on my upper arms! oouuucch!

thenn she taught me how to do crunches. (out of which i cant do it :X)
i rather do sit ups :X lols.
neways, thenn she taught me do stretches and such.
which really. pretty fun xD

theen after thatt went to weigh myself.
sucks i hate my weight! lols!
i so need to lose like 3kg.
i hope to do it for a month xD

hmm hmm. then had lunchh and such.
andd i hate going up stairs :S
lols.

im sure that tomorrow i will suffer bad bad aches!
talking aboutt tomorrow.
lets hope tomorrow is a good day.
for both me and darling.

wow. its 1st year anniversary!
after all those ups and downs we went thru together.
and heyy darling send me the poem that he sent me one year ago.
im so not gonna lose it again XD

im sorry darling for kept creating problems for u.
kept being an non-understanding girlfriend to you.
non-supportive of u and ur job (i mean really ur job is zzzz.. lols okay sorry!) and whaterver non- that follows :X

i love you okay.
and in this 1 year we have been together, i learnt a lot from you.
and i guess there are still more things to be learnt.
for the better of our relationship and our future together.

and on 25 january was the first year that i met u.
not officially met but online-ficially? LOLS. okay i know there's no such word.
anw; yeap i met u online on alamak on that day.
and it been the happiest thing that happen to me xD

we stead on the 28 january 2008; 1050pm.
out of which we still havent officially meet yet.

our first meeting was on the 4 feb 08 at chinese garden xD
1pm out of which if im not wrong, was the day after my fe exams. lols

so yeap.
months come and goes and yeap tmr is out first year anniversarryy xD
lets hope i shall get as much pics as possible tmr xD

alright.
shall off to bed now.
please body dont ache too much! lols!
niiitex xD

but i guess

Labels: gym, love

Wednesday, January 27, 2010 21:32 back to top?

TWO DAYYS!

wooo! TWO more days xD to our first year anniversary together xD
i admit. a lot of arguments kept coming up. that seriously sucks!

i really hope this thursday would be a happy day for both of us.
and i dowan to arguee.
and i dowan to talk about work.
and i dowan talk about anything that could make us both argue.
let this thurday be a happpyy day for both of us.

hmm.hmm.
there's a lot of things to do nowadays.
gems presentation are done. left one more lesson nxt week and thats the end of the gems for this sem.
eh wait. its more like really the LAST GEMS! wheee!
no more gems next semmmm! iii liiikkkeee!
hope to get more of my beauty sleep! hehex!

theenn i hope to really finish my nvst this week.
then next week can study for the test.

thennn now is week 15
i have 3 weeks to study for both NSS and NVST end of sem quiz.
shit i really have no confidence in NSS seh.
i kept failing the quiz. then the mst quiz also i fail. sad-ed sehh

then thenn im left with nss and netp practical.
both can be manageable because its group work.
stupid nvst need to do individual.

then tadii kan. the teachherr arhhh really makes me annoyed seh.
i kept asking her to check my work. then die mcm tk layan gituk.
like wth? then she sebok with some diploma plus thing or what.
annoying kan. then when i call her, she will like ask me wait.
then she done with her stuffs, she went to some else instead. like really zzzzz! -.-

tmr i still need to see her.
finish up the nvst.
mcm nk give up seh really tadi.
mcm nk really break down gituk.
i see all those people like wayne they all, like they die die wana do so well.
mcm i feel so demoralised! and wth am i talking in malay. ala gasak arh! hahax.

i think i speak too much english and end up talking less malay :S
neways kan. smlm i went home with dad. and i took this bus.
ade ni 3 org budak really merepek.
ite students. 2 girls 1 guy.
im not here to hate ite student tau. but as for this 3 students kan. diorg mcm really buat org marah u know!
they sit right at the front of the double deck bus then diorg bebual english, slang die mcm really menyampah seh! and for god sa
ke, they are malay! cant u speak english the way other malay people do?
if diorg were to talk like softly or something, i dont mind tau.
not only they talk loudly, they even on their song like loud and one girl and the guy sang!
im really like wtf? if ur voice sedap tu tkpe arh! zzzz brainless people -.-

i sat there and on my songs damn loud to not hear their voice.
i sat there with a -.- on my face!

neways neways.
i got nothing to say now.
i wanna find softwares for nvst.
yes i should really try my best!
alright :D im doneee heereee!
Tuesday, January 26, 2010 20:00 back to top?

can chocolates always be my cure?

im upset. darling has to work on THURSDAY!
he promised.

and he even told his manager.
urghhhhh. stupidddd managerrrr.

im not blaming darling.
just upset that he could have just quit his job just like anyone else.
but he doesnt want cause he likes his job.
for some part of the time, i dont blame him because he like his job.
but on other times, if lesser people are working there, it means that he has more job to do.
and if he got more job to do, he will have lesser time for me :(
sad-ed

anyways.
i shall still go for gym this wednesday.
im determined to lose at least 2 kg this month.
and yeah i shall stop eating chocolates too.
okay maybe not really stop.
maybe lesser it?

but but.
i like chocolates.
cause it never fails to make me feel better.

oh well i shall try my best.

things to buy:
// ZA lipbalm - shit i lost it; so i have to buy it again.
// ZA eye make up - 19.90 at watson
// black cardigan
// Za whitening lotion
// clear file
// cotton on clothes xD
// to be continuued.

Labels: to-buy

Sunday, January 24, 2010 20:01 back to top?

GGGYYYMMMM

its the first time im to the gymmm.
yess so excitedd. but i never thought abt the consequences to it :S

yes went to gym.
changed to track pants and tried this somewhatt bicycle kind of machine?
5 minutes was all i did.
5 minutes was all i needed that could make me collapse.
feeling of really blacking out.

my legs felt jelly-ish.
if i were to really continue walking, i really would have faint right there and then :X

lesson learn:
1] DO WARM UPS!
2] EAT SOMETHING BEFORE GYM!


hmm hmm.
yeappp afterr thatt met khaii at kfc to have lunch together with him and karthik.
and fc5 very colld and and the 3 of us sat there and till 2pm xD

then went fc3, bought juices for parents then went to clementi.

alrighht please please.
please dont ache so much till i cantt walkkk!
although now my shoulders are feeling ache-ish.
urgh..

but even so
i would not let this stop me from going to gym again next wed.
i will:
eat something light before to gym
do warm up before to gym
and get myself 100 plus too!

alright i shall study for nss tmr.

Labels: gym

Wednesday, January 20, 2010 20:58 back to top?

i do not want to hear u say sorry.
its not how many times u said sorry matters.
its how many times of the sorry is u mean it.

and can u do something rather than saying sorry instead?
hearing u saying sorry could make me have tears in my eyes.
why?
cause i hate u feeeling sad.
i rather take the pain. wake up the next day and hoping that everything goes back to normal.
but evrything was how it was yesterday.

keep telling myself to be strong.
be strong.
but by telling that it gets me on tears.
and idk why.....

concentrate on studies when u are not around with me. thats what khaii told me.
yes i can do that in school. unfortunately not at home.
not at home when ive got nothing to do.

if only u were here making me feel better.
but ure barely around.
and i hate that

i hate ur job.
i hate it cause ure not around for me anymore.
what abt the future?
what if u have to work on weekends.
what about me?

i know i shouldnt talk about this with u today.
i promise no arguments today.

i just hope nothing gonna pops up on 28 jan; to destroy our plans together.
no work related at all.

this is taking up my energy.....
staying up late till 1 am to think and cry.

shit i sound emo....

fighting this emotions. just for the happiness of u and me.
nine more days.
im gonna be strong
Tuesday, January 19, 2010 21:39 back to top?

better

can i ever make things better by not saying neting at all or say things that are in my mind but makes everything worst?
11:59 back to top?

time time time

and again the feeling of changing a new blogskin comes to mind.

but when i go into blogskin. nothing attracts me. or maybe im just too fussy?
or maybe i dont know what i really want.
yes thats more like it

to do another blogskin of my own takes a lot of my time.
but unfortunately; i havent have the time for it atm.

school work has been taking up a lot of my time.
other than that, i find myself taking lots of long naps. wait i dont even think 4hr is a nap. its more like a sleep. i dont think i need that 4hr "nap" but i just want it real bad. even though im not that tired.

i think i should spent my time in school rather than home if i finish classes early.
maybe that makes me not falling sleepy as soon as i reach home :S
andd if i reach home at 5, i wouldnt find myself sleeping cause ill have those headachey moments which sucks.

all my modules are having their individual project works and that sucks.
and its more suck-ish to know that all of them are due at the same time! urgh!

after seeing my screwed up MST results, im determined to do better. (although i feel demoralised at some point of time)
especially nss; i dont wish to fail the quiz one more time.
and i seriously dont wish to repeat the same module again!

after the first week of netp lecture, i realised that the only way for me to stay awake and really pay attention is to sit in the middle of wayne and karthik.
both of them makes me feel awake!
maayybbeee its because i wanna be like themm. knowing what they are reading or studying.

as for matthss, heyy i stayed up for the lecture.
well its not like i usually sleep in her class buttt well the feeling of sleeping is there.
butt i didnt sleep.
andd soo in 12 more days, im gonna miss another maths lecture.

andd on fridaay's;
netp practical has been okay.
ive been keeping myself awake with writing notes.
anddd i might start going for maths extra lessons after that till 1pm.
its a joined class with khai's class. i really hope darling wont mind..?
and according to khai; the teacher is go thru-ing maths past year papers. i soo need thatt to improve my maths drastically or maybe slowly?
(i dont think i have much time if i wanna do it slowly)

andd soo my rwp report is due on monday and im still stuck with point 3.
hooww howww howww!
andd nvst needs to do research? but what exactly am i finding? :S
nsss; uurrggh its such an ass; well maybe because i havent start reading it yet :X
netpp; clipping/creaming/wtvr wires?? thanks minli for learning it during itp xD it must be a great help xD

then there's gems! urgh!
presentation in week 15! stupidd stupiddd maths puzzles!
urrghhhhhhhh!

pictures :D

7January10


a short date with darlingg ♥

11January10


the story behind this picture is that we are both feeling sad for isaac's camera phone that got locked. (okay my sad-ed face looks fake :X)

15January10


lunch date with darliing ♥
Saturday, January 16, 2010 11:23 back to top?

shout it out

i wish i could just shout it out at ur face.
i wish i could hit you and be so damn angry and pissed of with u.
i wish i could do all the things i stated above; but i cant.
cause i love you and i hate seeing u hurt.

i wish you could see how hurt and disappointed i am with you.
i wish you could say "everything's is just a bad dream, and it will be as per normal when u open ur eyes"
how i wish the above statements are true.

im disappointed and i cant seem to force my tears to go back.
stop my tears from rolling down my cheeks.
how i wish you could be here and stop them for me.

i wish i could be angry with you and blame u for everything that is happening now.
but i cant. and i never will do that.
cause everything that ure doing now is for the future. for our future.

but i hate to think abt the future.
i want to live in the present happily with you.
i dont want to be arguing with you all the time just talking about the future.

i want you back to how u used to be ridzman.
to how u used to be that doesnt raise ur voice at me.

yes i was pissed off wheni woke up from my nap.
u called saying u want to meet tmr.
but only after 11 plus.
you have to work.
tomorrow is ur off day
but you have to work.
WHY WORK IF ITS UR OFF DAY??

thats what im so pissssed off.
and im stuck.
i want to meet you.
but fk it i have practical.
fk it i want to go for maths tutorial.
urgghh.

shit...
chest pain...........
Monday, January 11, 2010 19:38 back to top?

my dead blog

okay i havent gone missing in any way.
its just the first week of school in 2010 and im feeling like dying alreadyy!

there's just a lot of catching up to do.
yes i screwed my MSt like real bad. but thank god i didnt fail the maths and practicals so far.
well lets hope i dont fail my netp paper! if i do im soo gonna damn study hard for the est!

as i said its the first week of school and this was how my week went by.
monday; no other lessons except rwp. wasted 3 hours waiting for nvst but the lecturer never came.
but hey i got to end the game of life like finally with wayne and thik xD

tuesday; there was gems and nvst practical and maths tutorial.
two project works to be done by week 15 so far:
// gems assigment 2
// nvst mini porject

wednesday; no classes as per normal.

thursday; weelllllll nss practical was as usual; after that idk ////

friday; only netp practical. which was as usual again.
another project:
netp pbl.? urghh

sat: nothing much went out with parents to jp.

sun: went out with parents to IMM.
oh yeahh. i bought my first two pairs of FLATS at COTTON-ON
okay i have lots of shoes already but heyy at least i buy flattss kiiex!

alright im done with blogging.
i suddenly dont feel like it.
nitex.
urgh another week of school!


when can u be free and have more time for me?
i miss you till it hurts inside me.
not being able to sms u like how u used to.
75 pct to the old ridzlin? i feel like we are not even close

eighteen more days. can it get any better?
Sunday, January 10, 2010 21:02 back to top?

old you

i want the old ridzman back. please.
Monday, January 4, 2010 21:11 back to top?

MIA_ing

I realised i have been MIA-ing since my birthday.
well i was sick.
i mean seriously sick.
I never felt so sick like how i felt the last few days.

On Tuesday;
I went to the see the doctor.
and i was so so super weak. i couldnt even wake up and sit up straight.
and its so frustrating when ure so sick and u still have to wait. and little things really get you on ur nerves. i mean really. you really feel like shouting u know.
so yeap.
i was sick and the doctor said i was having high fever (high fever like 39deg and above) and i need to come back again in three days time if my fever still stays the same. and i need get a bloodtest.
BLOODTEST? nvvvmmmmmm. the thought of needles on my arm send shivers down my spine. lols.
so yeap got my medications and all i ever wanna do the whole day was sleep.

On Wednesday;
im supposed to go gym! well not really SUPPOSED TO. more like i wannt toooo!
but still i was feeling super weak and again spend the whole day sleeping. ate the medications and i was still feeling worst :S
its like i never eat the medications at all. zzz.

On thursday;
i was a little better. thinking that i wouldnt want to have needles poking in my arm.
since the medications arent doing any great job; and soo i decided to stop eating the medications and let it the fever lowers itself.
not eating the medications makes my dizziness lesser by ALOT! it sucks when u cant even sit up on the sofa and watch tv. that totally sucks. and my fever got a little better too.
so yeap im a little much happier. well a little only.

On Friday;
fever got MUCH MORE BETTER but hey there's another problem.
i was having bad bad stomachache.
and whats worst i kept going toilet for every 5-10 minutes! that totally sucks.
i feel so weak! watever i eat comes out like 5 minutes later. zzzz.
and i lost my appetite real bad :( eh wait; the good thing is that i get to lose weight!
xD so yeap. i cant really sleep as afraid i will get dizzy from waking up too much to kept going to the toilet. but alhamdullillah i get to sleep peacefully till 3 am i woke up to go to the toilet once and thats it.
and i had to say my farewells to my long hair :(

on Saturday(today);
today i was feeling better. well except that it sucks cause i cant wear my specs. even for a lil while it will cause me major headaches. so i have to stop. on the bright side, i will get my tudong to "stand up" properly. lols!
and yeah i finally weigh myself today. and yayy i lose 2kg in 4 days. LOLS!
*jumps around* kk cant. headachey. lols.

alright thats how i spend my new year.
by getting sick real bad.
xD

and i miss my boyfriend.
why must he be so busy with work
twenty-six more dayyysss! yayy! okay i think i shall stop counting :(

Labels: sick

Saturday, January 2, 2010 20:56 back to top?