i do not want to hear u say sorry.
its not how many times u said sorry matters.
its how many times of the sorry is u mean it.

and can u do something rather than saying sorry instead?
hearing u saying sorry could make me have tears in my eyes.
why?
cause i hate u feeeling sad.
i rather take the pain. wake up the next day and hoping that everything goes back to normal.
but evrything was how it was yesterday.

keep telling myself to be strong.
be strong.
but by telling that it gets me on tears.
and idk why.....

concentrate on studies when u are not around with me. thats what khaii told me.
yes i can do that in school. unfortunately not at home.
not at home when ive got nothing to do.

if only u were here making me feel better.
but ure barely around.
and i hate that

i hate ur job.
i hate it cause ure not around for me anymore.
what abt the future?
what if u have to work on weekends.
what about me?

i know i shouldnt talk about this with u today.
i promise no arguments today.

i just hope nothing gonna pops up on 28 jan; to destroy our plans together.
no work related at all.

this is taking up my energy.....
staying up late till 1 am to think and cry.

shit i sound emo....

fighting this emotions. just for the happiness of u and me.
nine more days.
im gonna be strong
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