in pain with cramps. urgh super uberly irritating!

did nothing much today. except ended up playing psp almost the whole day =S
ohs and my xp went missing. dad went to update vista to service pack or something then ended up the my lappy only boots up to vista.

actually i cried when i see that my lappy couldnt boot up to xp okay! its like wth? monday is my java practical and this problem happened! like wth??? told dad and dad seems pretty much worried. lol. oh well, i tried system restore but couldnt work. i installed netbeans to vista instead. so yeah. can work. and i have one of my projects saved in d drive. so lucky me. i got the mock test project from sherr. thanks.

am i prepared for java? im not sure about it myself. i havent do my FE papers. i really need to do well for FE to cover up for my practical test which was.. well, SCREWED. lol. and my maths, well okay i guess. oh yeah! pbl i forgot to download =S and havent send email to thik about the group members.

the only group out of which, we're not in the same group. IDEAs we are and so does crs. i have been thinking about u lately. yea i got upset due to the fact that ure ignoring me. but what can i do anyway? i guess i just have to keep this to myself huh? you dont have to know. im always little-miss-sunshine. putting on smiles on everyone. deep down, lms isnt sunny as her name....

oh well.
back to FE or maybe... back to pet society =x
see ya xD
Saturday, November 29, 2008 20:12 back to top?

not a word spoken...

finally stress free... NOT.
well, somewhat.
stress free of no more portfolio to do. and I have handed it just now xD so yeah.... stress free a little.

but i have yet to study for MST.
and here i am blogging half-heartedly.

DICT.1A.21 planned for a bbq or something on 31 DEC, after school. and they plan to stay over too somehow.... got me upset real bad because I know my parents will never approve of it. how i really wish i could go.... but parents.......

and its been two days. not a single word spoken from u. we just didnt talk. its like complete strangers... well of course we are strangers but.... first three days of the week, we talk and laugh like nobody's business.... but what happened to thursday and friday? haish...... how i wish i could tell u the truth...... it hurts me each and everyday to see u not talking to me.... but who am i to force u talk to me. im just a nobody to u......

daniel's life seems getting better after we broke up like what almost 2 months? im guessing he got over it so fast...... but i cant seem to be happy to see him happy..... why...... 3 years past just like the wind....... how could i ever let it go easily....... it was the longest r/s that ive ever had..... and we shared so many things together...... broken and empty promises....... i wish i could hate u for that daniel..... but even so, u have treat me very well........ why am i crying so much blogging about this..... why cant i just let u go... maybe the reasons is because i trusted u for a whole life relationship... and also we were so happy...... we lasted more than our friends... we did so many things together......... haish.... i know i will never get u back.... but i needa find a way to stop being miserable thinking about ur happy life daniel.....

miserable. dissapointed with ownself. no one to blame. just myself.....

Friday, November 28, 2008 19:25 back to top?

Is it something that I did?

short blog again. gonna have dinner then continue portfolio. 4 more sets need to be analyse.

u went offline just when i changed my status to online. whats wrong? why are u ignoring me all over again? not a word spoken from you today. what did i do this time.....

When you love someone
And they break your heart
don’t give up on love
Have faith, restart
Just hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on-Jonas Brothers; Hold on

Thursday, November 27, 2008 19:32 back to top?

short blog today.
busy with portfolio. and just heard tmr there's maths mock test -.-

remind to ownself:
today is about clumsy.

not me. its you.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008 19:16 back to top?

random sunshine xP

aite a happy day it is.

lesson starts late today. but i still choose to come early.
so woke up at 8 i guess. then got ready and such and applied mascara like how I watched in videojug yesterday xD its kinda okay. but makes me keep putting over it and therefore makes it thick. =x and it gets messy. needa get used to it. anyways, got out of house at 845am.

while walking the bustop, 154 just left. urgh. so waited for the bus for quite some time. and saw rohani. the jss rohani. yeah we talk and such. she asked me about daniel's hair. i think she didnt know about my break up with daniel huh? i was wondering should i tell her or should i not? then i decided, nope. bus 154 came and talked to her and such. before she left, wished her happy adv birthday. xD

then reached school at about 940 or so. decided to stop by at cafe to buy myself chocolate muffin. and while i was waiting for my muffin, some random guy just greeted me. and im like. wth? are u talking to me? then he turned to his friend and said something like why i never answer him. then after my muffin cooked, the same guy greeted me. and well, i replied him and he smiled. and one of mr random friend is my bestfriends brother. lol. oh well.

went to library to return book. then walked to moberly. sat at moberly alone and enjoy my muffin. no im not being emo. lol. then ate half way, threw my muffin. it seems nt as sweet as last time =S then went to moberly toilet and rinse and adjust my tudong =x hahax. then while walking to staircase to crs class, met up with thik,minli and chee siew.

walked together with them to staircase and saw u downstairs.

walked up to class and crs lesson. she discussed about the fallacies paper and then talked about the discussion cafe. and im like the only one in my group who bring the paper. then thik, ashraf and isaac came over.

you sat on my right *blush* and we chat about the discussion cafe once a while. but im sure we chat more today than yesterday. =))

then the discussion about discussion cafe ended and the crs teacher talked about databases from eliser and such. then, sherr and ehston wrote something about dates that ure not available during the holidays. wrote mine saying im only unavailable on weekends.

passed u that book. and the way you look at me when i passed u that book.... it was just so...... nice.. its like a combination of u being confused and warm at the same time... melts me damn bad =x

then lesson ended, went to have lunch. sat at the same table with thik,ashraf,isaac,minli,sherr,and jon. i didnt eat lunch. except for creampuff and aloevera peach drink. felt so nice because its so cooling. thanks sherr for the creampuff xD then took a picture of blue items. together with sherr pills =x haha.
here's the pic.

blue straps,blue wet tissue and the aloe vera peach is mine. watch is minli's. the others are sherr's.

then accompany sherr to apply for LOA. then walked back to fc3 and saw everyone was still there. went to toilet and then walked to class together with the others for networking.

sat together with u and thik and sherr. joined u in disturbing thik. talked to you about FE lab test. discuss answers and such. was nice to see you smile =))

then NE ended early and such, went to fc3 to print somethings for sherr and minli. then walked back to class. after a while, FE teacher came and wanted to ask her a question. but god she knows the question was from lab test. haha.

talked to you more about FE lab test. we exchange answers and such.

after class ended, minli,me,ashraf,thik and isaac went to Moberly jam room. no im not there to go jamming. i went there because helping minli with FE lab test. ohs and i told thik about "girls should go up first while climbing staircase/elevators and guys should go first while going down staircase/elevators" hahax.

u heard about it too huh? then i said. guys should open the door for girls. then you said not necessarily. then i said must lor. then u kept saying not necessarily and i replied "stubborn" and went in the jamming room. lol =x

in jamming room.

you played the electric guitar and.... ure like so good at it. i helped minli with her lab test and in between while she's writing, i stared at u playing the guitar. u looked awesome.... =x *melts* then u played this mcfly song that minli recognised and u played it so well. and i gt stuck with the song now. =x and it was well, over 5 and we're still in the jamming room =x then isaac and thik and you decided to play together. isaac was on drums and thik was on piano/organ or watever it is called. well, it does sound great =D stared at u playing ur guitar... ur long fingers strumming. and u seems so relax..... i think u saw me observing u =x oops? haha. then we finish everything and such and while walking the staircase, "thik, guys should go first" then u and thik went rushing down the staircase.. lol.

walked together to mrt/bustop. and waited for isaac for a while. and u took bus today. no taekwando today! xD while going down the escalator (which, u went down first =x), u asked about the NE lab test. and i said its lab 1 to 4 and u kept saying "u sure? u sure?" haha. and u didnt copy what the NE lecturer said about the lab test because u were doing FE. lol. if ure online, ill ask u if u need that thing or not. didnt took bus with you. i purposely let go 14 and 166 and so many bus just to wait for 106. but since im nearly late, i took 147 instead. after reaching clementi, after a few bus, 106 came -.- urggh. haha. but i saw u inside. smiled as the bus pass by....

therefore, its a happy day today. so yeap. litte-miss-sunshine =))
Tuesday, November 25, 2008 19:24 back to top?

bleh. im supposed to start studying. okay will after i blogg this.

nothing much after the Java Lesson. lesson ended and walked to T824 just for IDEA. reached IDEA class, everyone tap at the attendance machine and karthik check on everyone's attendance then go off -.- what a waste of time. then walked back to bustop together with Thik and Ashraf.

okay very well, i still wanna blog about u. you took bus today. ohs and i was refraining to not look at you the whole day today and i have no idea why..... sometimes i do though... we didnt talk. except the hello in the morning. and also except when Minli asked where our group for IDEA is going "shopping" at. and I said "Orchard" then you asked me "Orchard?" then i said "yea?" and end of conversation. my Java lecturer came. then other than that, I know we laugh when Isaac was imitating Jon and calling to Minli =x hahax. i laugh non-stop =x
anw, you took bus. and no we didnt talk. not even a single word. i tried to think of something to start talking to you. but im afraid i got cold answers from you. as the way you've been trying to ignore me the past one week. but even so, i still find myself blushing when you were beside me.after sometime, shibao came and ask what bus im taking. i said 105. why do i even said 105! urgh. i should have said 106 =x then he asked where am i off to? err clementi. then he told me 147 also can, which i know =x and i purposely let the bus go. just to have more time looking at you even without saying anything to you. 105 bus came first even though i was hoping for 106. so we could take the same bus together. so i took 105 instead with shibao. stopped at clementi.
while waiting for 154, 106 came after a little while the bus 105 i board, left. saw u. and i found myself blushing all over again. urghh..

anyways, i guess thats all for today. needa print my FE mst papers and latest Maths MST papers. ohs and i have a sudden interest in old songs. you know,old songs like, from backstreet boys,n sync, ryan cabrera =x and ryan is gorgeous! hahax =D
ohs and those songs are mostly about LOVE. urgh. no im not loving anyone.

im onlly liking =x

but oh well, old songs are just plain Beautiful.

aite im off now. see ya xD

"One. you're like a dream come true.
Two. just wanna be with you.
Three. girl, its plain to see that you're the only one for me.
Four. repeat steps one to three.
Five. make you fall in love with me." - Brian McKnight; Back at One.

"I'll be your dream, i'll be your wish,
i'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope, I'll be your love,
Be everything that you need.
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly, Madly, Deeply do. " - Savage Garden; Truly Madly Deeply.

Monday, November 24, 2008 19:55 back to top?

just had java mock test -.- haha. it was somewhat unexpected. i know the lecturer said something about having mock test last week. but i totally forgot about it xD

i discovered that that there's only 3 questions but i can only do 2 questions. and the total marks for the 2 questions is half of the total marks of the whole paper =x last question is about random numbers. i really dont know how to do the random number thingy. urrrghh... and next week is the JAVA practical test. please let there be no random numbers thingy.

i wonder. should i still blog about u?

well, im off now. maybe ill blog again tonight or something. needa finish my FE lab test theory questions and start studying for JAVA and NE lab quiz also. aite. see ya xD

it is sunny today. but is little-miss-sunshiine as sunny as the weather outside?

14:19 back to top?

aite. i didnt have to blog yesterday. well its because i spend the whole time at home doing my Maths revision paper. why one whole day? well, there's distractions everywhere. my nieces were disturbing me. lol i got myself distracted somewhat too. i went to youtube and search for thomas and train theme song and barney and dibo the gift dragon. and talking about dibo, dibo is super cute okay!! here's the video:



super cute. except thats in purple in color. why do these creators like to create dinosaurs in purple? well, dibo is purple. and so does barney -.- but hey, to think of it, i think it looks super weird if barney is blue or even PINK. hahax!

okay anyways, went shopping with mum at Jurong Point together with my nieces. well, i went shopping for a new blue dress and shoes. wanted to find white flats to replace the one that the straps snapped. but instead i bought a white heels. xD oops? =x haha. spend $20. aww my bank amount is draining. =( hahax.

anw, watched Enchanted at night at star movies. very very nice. it was the first movie that i watched with daniel.... oh well. memories. and i saw him just now. while walking down the staircase. he looked kinda different nowadays... hmm.. oh well. im glad we're still friends. so yea.

ohs and btw. im in school while blogging this. since im very early as always. hahax. gtg. see ya xD
07:41 back to top?

i think there's a need for me to actually gain weight. lol. its like my jeans are super loose even though i wear belt inside -.- urrghh. its irritating. so, here's a picture of junk foods which im planning to finish it by tonight while doing my NE practice quiz and maths revision paper. hahax.

yes. toblerones. how it reminds me of you and daniel. why daniel? well, i rmbred he bought me two bigger version of toblerone. i think it was our anniversary gift or something. and toblerones remind me of you? well, i bought u one for ur birthday celebration. which i remembered i bought from cheers at laskeside MRT before heading to school. oh well.

two people got me irritated yesterday and today. well, these two guys, which happened to be MIA for one week or more without smsing or msn-ing me, happened to MSN or sms me saying wanna meet up -.- one said that he has attachments at pandan loop and finishes at 530 and was hoping to meet up with me after i finish school. while the other one, who didnt sms for a week or so, wanted to fetch me from school everyday starting next week. -.- yes i decline both of them. no i dont wanna meet any of them. i dont mind chatting in MSN or smsing. but meeting just because what? u wanna make use of me again?? heck no. other than that, 530 is over my "curfew" of reaching home. i usually ended early and i rather stay at home.

even if i hate staying at home because my nieces are super irritating -.- watever i wanna eat, they eat. like for example, i went to cook maggi because im super hungry. and i tried damn hard to pretend their not looking at me eating. but no matter how hard i tried to ignore, i still have a very soft spot inside me. urrrghh. oh well. gave some but got myself hungry all over again -.- that explains lots of the junk foods huh? hahax.

well, im gonna start my NE practice quiz now. NE sounds like National Education. hahax. and yay i got my psp back today. after its been a week without touching my psp! hahax. gonna stay up till 12 maybe? =x haha. and tomorrow going shopping for shoes! sis working at the information counter in JP, she said there's JOhn Little shoes sale and swank shoes sale! which of course my favourite sales! Swank was one of my favourite shoes shop. but i didnt buy any of from them now since, well, the shoes are not as heel-yyss as Giovanna's. hmm. maybe i can shop for 2 shoes tomorrow with $20! =x yes i am. somehow, it releases my tension of studying. hahax.

no im not angry with you anymore. well, im in no position to force u to like me. i truly understand. well, just so you know, i will still continue to like u. i guess.....

Saturday, November 22, 2008 19:16 back to top?

wth la. my xp is SUPER freaking lag. and today i bring lappy for nothing -.- urrghhh..

lesson was fine in the morning. nothing much for maths. did tutorial.

was trying my best not to look at you. except when i was talking with thik and u about the ogive thingy....

went to have lunch later on with sherr and minli. except minli didnt eat. sherr and I ate me siam. oh i love the me siam at fc3 a lot! walked to t1a after that. reached t1a51 for crs, and me and sherr was like "eh? why got another class?"

called thik and he doubled check. not t1a51. it was t1a52 -.- i was not mad at him actually. haha. and guess what? t1a52 is being used by another teacher -.- then my crs teacher went to go find a subst class. so me and sherr waited outside the class of t1a52 for no reason. while the others stayed infront of the lift just to get sheltered by the sun. then thik told me something

something about u. well u told thik u read jon's blog. and thik told me its possible u read my blog too. well, my blog can easily tracked down due that jon linked me or just by looking at sherr's pm msn nick. so yeah well if u really am reading this, let me get things straight.

im not gonna get in a relationship with anyone. not even if u we both have the same feelings for each other. which i SUPER doubt so. i know u dont wanna have a relationship. i understand. what i want is just u and me getting closer with each other and just getting to know each other. not getting in a relationship.how i wish u truly understand why i like you. not only u were my remedy for my break up with daniel. but also because i like u just the way u are. i really do.....

so, when my crs teacher came, i was somewhat pissed.

yes. pissed with u.idk what for but ya. im just pissed.

then she said class change to t1a64 i think. then jon was like super irritating. kept asking my crs teacher to ask the students in the class to t1a52 to go out and kept asking why? why? there's no teacher what? then i guess, u asked the wrong person. u told my crs teacher and then looked at me and asked the freaking same thing! "why? no teacher in class what?" then i shouted "I SAW!" well, yea i really did see there's a teacher inside. and no i seldom shout to people. i shouted because i was pissed and jon add more to my frustration.

i felt better after i shouted at jon. and idk why.....
reached that t1a64 class then sat waiting for the teacher. the classroom is rather small there but its somewhat makes me feel cozy. lol. the aircons are super cold. thanks again to jonathan who puts the aircon to high. -.- then settled down when my crs teacher came in and we started off with making groups for discussion cafe. sherr,me,ashraf,thik and isaac. we decided to discuss about "the "ugly"" something something =x lol. then the teacher wanted to make choose us our group members. then she said, who's the first group to hand in the list, she will not change the group members. lol. actually we wrote everything down already, group members, topic. but one thing is out group name. lol. we then finally decided on group name: group5. lol. since we're the only one group with 5 members.

then crs was okay. played a little game. being to copy what she's doing. and also together with her posing when she drew, "this is a moon with the eyes, the nose and the mouth" i couldnt get it right. actualy everyone couldnt get it right at first because we concentrated on the drawings instead of the pose. lol. sherr got first. no i didnt get it because i dont know how to do the pose =x oh well.

then crs lesson continued about fallacies and we somehow were kinda late for gems. me, sherr and ashraf are the only ones that have gems on friday at 1. then jsut when she said nothing's all, me sherr and ashraf are the first one to leave the room. lol. first because its nearly 1 pm. like 2 minutes before 1. then secondly we have to walk to t6! lol. me and sherr practically run along the corridor towards the lift. the lift was super slow -.-

then we somewhat ran again to t6. lol. then reached my class and the lecturer was just explaining about the portfolio. and its due.....
THIS COMING FRIDAY!! 26 NOV!!! AND I FREAKING NEED 7 SETS OF OFFICE ATTIRE TO BE PRINTED OUT TOGETHER WITH WRITING OF 1500 WORDS! LIKE OMG!!!! I HAVE ENOUGH THINGS TO DO ALREADY!!!!

urggh. anw, gems was fun today.we learn how to sit,stand,walk, shake hands, issue name cards and such. lol. next week is about dating -.- what for? i dont think anyone would want to date me either. well, i guess its gettin interesting next lesson for gems. except for the portfolio part. urggh. thats my CA1 btw. and the next thing i know CA2 is role-playing. -.- i dont even mix anyone. not only mixing, i dont even talk. except for that wei liong guy.

oh well, lotx of things to do. needa start looking for clothes. and do fe lab test thory questions, and maths revision papers + mst papers and ne practice quiz 1. urrgghh.
Friday, November 21, 2008 19:11 back to top?

how I wish I could hate you.


Cinderella. my all time favourite fairy tale story.... how i wish fairytale endings come true in real life.
will there ever be fairytale ending in my life?

yes. today isnt a good day.
first i slipped on the staircase and next thing I knew, i got something which i really am afraid of.

yes. today is the day which for sure I know, ure starting to ignore and avoid me. what makes u do that huh? u read my blog? or you saw it for urself? u said u were in a rush. thik asked u if u're takin? then u said bus. i guess u saw me smile and then thats where u change to train right? wow. grats norlin. u made ur crush ignore and avoid u. idk why when i told myself not to get disappointed with it but i still am.

i was pretty upset on the way home. well, not because of no bus ride with you. but because ure starting to avoid me. well, another prove that makes me confirm that u ignore me was just now. i sign in MSN and saw u online. as soon as i change my status to online, u went offline. see? wow.. thanks ashraf. thanks so much.....

how i really wish i could hate you for this. but no.. i cant. i really cant hate anyone. its just something that i hate about myself.
whats worst when i reached home to find out that yesterday i bought one box of chocolate lexus biscuits and today, i see there's only 2 packets left -.- wow. thanks......

i feel so miserable now. and so upset. and so angry with myself...... firstly you got me confused, now u got me miserable. well, maybe the second part isnt true. im the one who is making myself mierable. yeah maybe..........
how i wish i could hate you for this.

but; i cant. im never someone who lets go so easily.

i always thought u were my remedy to my break up with daniel. i guess u turn into a poison for me instead....

i hate you but i still like you .

Thursday, November 20, 2008 19:40 back to top?

java quiz 2 is screwed =x
hahx. i didnt know that (2 == 4 % 2) is false! urrghhhhh

today i fell on the staircase =x
hahax. its very embarassing okay! stupid sandals. urrrrghh im not gonna wear it again. lol.. hmmm maybe i can buy one pair of new shoes this weekend =x maybe. if only dad allow. hahax

you saw i fall =x. super embarassing!!!! hahax. idk if its me or i saw u looking too? urggh idk. im still very confused... i heard that u gotta rush off today huh? so now bus ride together again huh? nope its okay. im not disappointed.

hmm not meeting rohani today. i dont feel like going home early though... but i dont know what to do or where to go if i never go home. if i were to go home, its not like as if i can study or do research for my stupid crs article. i have to take care of my nieces and niece -.- idk where to go though.... i feel like going jp library or jurong east library.... but urgh maybe. maybe not.

oh well thats all for now. will blog again later i guess. maybe? today the sun is shining outside. i dont feel as sunny =( its okay i guess. well, my left elbow hurts though. im guessing it will be blue black soon =x
aite. see ya!
10:13 back to top?

Just when I thought.....

random picture of pet society from facebook =D sherr's pet and my pet xD


at her house =D mine is the one with the red bow of course =D

after some time i left it, it went to sleep on its own. how adorable xD


lesson was okay today i guess. waited for sherr to come. she was kinda late.
told thik and ashraf to go first. but they still wanna wait. oh well. sherr came and walked to class together to have our FE lab. well, did that FE lab. finally know how to connect the wires. hahax. next week is the lab test. im not too late am i?

observed u from where I was sitting. ure not urself as much today. well, to me, u seems quieter... how i wish i could know what ure thinking....

went to NE lab next at t913. did all the labs. next week is the lab test too. LAB 1 to 4. but lab 3 no need to do, just needa read through. shi bao and thik and shawn helped me with lab 4. well, during that lab, i was on MC. lol. oh well. did all the other labs on my own.

before class starts, asked thik whether ure okay? then he told me that u told him ure just tired from yesterday. taekwando huh? oh well.

lesson ended at about 12 with 3 labs done =D yay. decided to have lunch with thik and ashraf after calling mum and asked her what she cooked today. nothing nice =X

we went to eat at fc3. u were okay i guess. maybe? maybe not. we rarely talk though. except for the usual "hi" in the morning. we somewhat stand near the entrance of fc3. waiting for seats.lol. thik's and ashraf friend somehow saw the two of them. and he then lets us sit together with him. oh ya. thik asked u "ash, u taking bus today?" u replied"nope. train." disappointed..... ate me siam today. i love the me siam. because there's no taugeh in it! wahahaha. ate my food while thik and ash have talks with their friends. their friend ask ash what was his gpa. and u forgot. wanted to tell u 3.3. but i kept quiet instead. then after we're done, walked together with u,thik and ur friend to MRT there. but thik went off to t15 and so his ur friend. then left me and you...

then u asked "you taking bus today right?" and i replied"ya. ure taking train?" "yea"
disappointed once again..... okay i acted as if i was okay but actually im not =x then while walking towards the MRT/bustop, i asked u "not going for carrer fair?" "nope it doesnt concern me" "its for ur future though" then kept quiet again. walking towards MRT/bustop. reached the escalator, and u said "See ya" while waved ur hands like how u always do... "see ya....." with a sad sad face.

saw u going up the escalator to platform. wanted to stare at u but no i didnt. looked at u once a while. i guess u notice it somehow huh? then ur bus came... 106.... how i wish we could have taken the same bus together ashraf...... oh well. then i got myself thinking.... are u trying to avoid me? thats why ure not taking bus with me? if ure avoiding me, why are u still talking to me? why do u ask me if im taking bus today?
just when i thought i recover from being confused...... and here i am. being confuse all over again

reached home at about 140 or so. then realised it was starting to rain. well, it started drizzling though. reached home and decided to take an hour or two nap. but ended up sleeping all the way from 2 to 445 =x

within that "napping" time of mine. i could still dreamt of u. it was just a mix up kind of dream. i know we just finished class and we're all walking towards MRT. then idk why my parents and uncles are there. dont know for what? =S then idk how the hell i ended up taking 106 with u and thik. then i rmbred in the bus, u showed me where ur house is. instead of u alighting, u decided to take the bus all the way to interchange with us. then reach interchange, u showed me and thik the train. and idk what happen next because i heard my nephew crying -.- lol. oh well. it is a weird dream after all. so ya.

still wondering..... why am i kept dreaming of u so often nowadays...... why am i so confused? once again, u avoided taking bus with me but u still talk to me? HUH? could it be that ure meeting ur friend thats why ure taking train? idk. idk. idk.

oh well. im off to study for JAVA test now. wish me luck.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008 19:26 back to top?

pictures first:

random picture i took of my niece. when ure too tired, dont color. sleep! lol.


a picture of me with my new white speeecccsss xD love it. except that its heavier than the maroon one. oh well.



picture of me and sherr taken yesterday with my new phone in java lesson =D and edited today while waiting for minli and isaac. lol.

woah. so fast 40th posts! hahx.

today lesson starts late. well, my crs starts at 1000. got to wake up a little later than usual. mum woke me up at 7 plus to help look after my niece and nephew -.- im like urrrggghhhhh!!! woke up a lil while, then helped to look after them for a lil while till mum was not as busy. then went to sleep again. wake up an hour later -.- zzzzz.

took bus to school today. took my own sweet time. reached school at about 930++ met minli and sherr at T15 benches. stayed for a while then went to t1036. waited for shawn and the teacher outside for my crs test.
overall the test was okay i guess. err i was asked to do a research on something from the article and have to tell her about it next tuesday -.- will do it during the weekends i guess.

then when i was done with the article analysing. i heard sherr and minli and isaac was outside. well i saw them too. they wrote something on a piece of paper and showed me. but i cant really see it. later i know that what they wrote on ur paper is "ASHRAF HERE" lol. then bla bla commented on shawn's article. niwei got the same article with me. but thank god the teacher didnt said i was the one who should changed. who cares with her anw. oh well.

went to auditorium study place after that. and i was reading book and listening to songs. how i wish i could have my psp with me! then waited for isaac and minli to have lunch together. they came after some time then we ate at cafe. actually i was the only one eating. sher was fasting while isaac had his mum's bread while minli is saving her money. lol. so i ate the chicken curry =D yumm.. thik came after sometime then we talked and played this psp game from isaac's psp. everyone got to try. haha. it was fun.

still. no signs of u. u said yesterday that u went to meet ur friend. hmm... after ive eaten,i decided to sms u and asked where are u now? then u said ure at jurong east. so replied ur sms said something like "aite okay. we'll wait for u at cafe together with thik,isaac,minli and sherr" kept looking out and wanting to see u.... isaac and thik was being playful. "where's the hero?" "when is our story gonna start?" "the extras are all here" lol. then saw u from far. i could easily recognise u. why? because of ur red bag sling over on ur shoulders. then while waiting for you to walk to cafe, eshton came exactly right infront of my face. and i totall scream. and my scream could be heard from outside. like wth lor??? urrgghhh ESHTONN!!! i nearly wanted to cry!!! -.- it was the same feeling as how i was shocked when daniel wore that scream mask.......

then after that, walked to class together with the others. at first dont know what happened to sherr. she was like walking ahead of me, thik, ashraf,minli and isaac. and we were like? eh? whats wrong with her?

walked together with you and thik to class and we were talking about.... idk what. lol. oh well.

reached outside class, got to know sherr was just acting. lol. i wanted to throw her down! hahax. then reached class and sat on the same row as thik and ashraf.

im never am gonna sit beside u. and idk why. well if i were given a choice, i dont want either. lol. silly me. anw, from where i was sitting, you on the far right side, then thik then me and sherr.
lesson started. even though u were close with me, i found myself staring at u and i got myself thinking... "what are u thinking about.....?" and i saw that u kept writing something on the table and then kept erasing it.... what issit that u writing about? i kept observing ur long fingers. urrghh. i got to know ure having cca on tuesdays. so no bus ride today...

lesson was okay. it ended early about 20 mins earlier?

we talked about our plan for tmr? liming's birthday bash and stuff? lol. are u angry when i call u nugget? sorry if u are. im gonna stop it if u dont like it... then i fuond myself laughing when u and thik was "arguing" about something. thik was saying something like "my men is gonna kill u" or something like that and u ssaid "bring it on" then u guys continue "arguing" and im laughing non stop!!! lol. kept looking at u when u laugh.. and idk why..... maybe because the times when u laugh, u look more relax.. but when ure not laughing. u look very serious....

then some of the guys put up english song. and... the song was... "only one-by yellowcard" i was like.... "omg i hate this song" then i went out of class..... went to toilet with sherr.. she even sang me that song. i was like "i hate that song!!!" "why" "the first song that i got addicted from daniel when i first like him......" i nearly wanted to cry...... but i didnt...

went back to class and thank god the song was over. sat and watched thik played psp. i was the only one dk what to do. ashraf playing his psp also. thik played sherr's psp. then sherr was drawing.

i ended looking at thik playing psp and looking at u and seeing u smile....

fund Elec teacher came and we were like doing the usual thing we did for FE tutorial. the four of us were asked to do questions on the board. lol as for sherr.. she loves drawing. well, i took a picture of it. xD

the one in black is ur handwriting. i always like to tease you. "your handwriting sucks" then u nods and smile away..

lesson ended at 4 plus instead. sherr passed some sweets to me, thik and ashraf.

passed u the whole packet of the sweets. and our hands somewhat touched each others. well i guess my hands were pretty cold just now =S then im like blush.... like damn bad. i dont think u realise it though.. oh well.. later then i thought... its like... history is repeating itself.......

walked together out of class and to mrt with thik and sherr and ashraf.

except that u didnt take bus today. u went to fc3 instead. u turned and waved ur hand.. the way that u always did... and smiled. *melts* =x hahax. oh well. tomorrow is another day. somethings are still nt clear for me. do u know about it already? since the whole class seems to know about it. if u do know about it. why do i feel like ure NOT ignoring me.... okay thats supposed to be a good thing. but im still unsure with it.... kept thinking about u on the way home in bus..... will you ever found out if u havent? i wonder......

Tuesday, November 18, 2008 19:33 back to top?

okay i seriously need to finish my networking chapter 5 notes. ive been delaying it for the past 1 week or so. =x oh well.

second entry for today. and ive got lots to blog about

especially about u.

lets see from where i last stop. hmm LUNCH. yeap. lunch. went to have lunch with thik, ashraf and jon -.- just the four of us. it was raining. sat inside fc3.

thik wanted me to sit beside u during lunch. i didnt. i chose to sit beside jon instead. the reason? well, if i were to sit beside u, i cant really talk as freely. when i sit diagonally from u, i could talk and look at u eating too =x ohs then thik mention about nuggets. then me and u and thik started laughing. the night before, the three of us chatted and u and him were talking about making me into a human candle/campfire. then thik got a name for u. nugget. lol!! so while thik was eating his nuggets, u were like "eat lor eat!" haha!! nugget...

then after lunch, went to popular with sherr to take our books. then walked the long way to t12 for java. lol. we played with the lights inside =x haha. lesson started and yeah. normal lesson.

then got this part where we complain to our teacher saying we get prank mails from lecturers. lol. and karthik got 4. then u asked me if i got about nwkin compulsory class. didnt know it was much of a prank too. or a spam/junk kind of a mail. then, we chatted and such about that prank/junk mail and showed our java lecturer. hahax. then at some point, saw u smile here and there. then got to know that u were talking about the human candle = me. on my birthday. urrghhh.. then me started calling u nugget! and u and thik wanted to buy raphia string or what shit. lol.
then asked minli about ur dp. it was really coincidental that she just type "sun". and coincidental my nick is little-miss-sunshiine. lol.

then IDEA lesson was next. we have to present our 3D image. lol.
mine was a picture of octopus of 6 legs. inspired by ppg bubbles. why? because ppg is my favourite cartoon! lol.

ur 3D design is somewhat like mine. instead of octopus, urs is a squid. lol. coincidental again? we both made animals =D sea creatures to be exact.lol

laugh so much for IDEA. so cool lor. haha. then we have another assignment. we have to go "shopping" as a group. to observe how the sales person treat us. lol. so cool and they planned to go orchard. then i said " urr i needa find reason for my parents" eshton suggested "me and ashraf go my house." lol.

and thats where it all started. sherr asked u if u know my house. and u didnt. then she send u the pic of me writing LOA and if u zoom it in, can see my full address! urrgghhh.. and u send it over to ur phone somemore! walao!! then at first u were kinda silly. i was behind u and saw u were receiving that pic from sherr. i went over and just press "cancel" lol!! then u send it again. but instead u put ur phone somewhere belooow =x so i cant possible press cancel. haha. oh well.

lesson ended somehow before 5 again.

u took bus today. while walking towards mrt with sherr and isaac, saw u walking pass us. u bought some drink from 711 i assume? then saw u waiting for the bus...... haish. i missed my chance to take bus with u today.... will there be more chances tmr? why i didnt take bus? even though i said i wanted to yesterday? well, me and sherr planned to get handphone straps at IMM. so thats why... =( oh well. bus rides with you will come more often i guess? but going out with sherr will be rarely. so yeah.

took train with sherr and the other guys: eshton and the others.

asked eshton about u and he told me a lot of things about u.... he said ure the "u-dont-talk-i-dont-talk-kind-of-guy". err okay. he told me the best solution is to be myself. yes i am myself. cheerful and just myself. looking like myself.. heels with tudong + mascara. xD he told me one thing " if he really like u the way u are, he maybe will go start asking first" well, i dont think so... ure's just so shy..... ure shy and im shy and i blush easily just by the saying hi to u in the morning.. urrghh wth is wrong with me!! oh well.... u knew my address. is there someway i know urs too? i iwish......

off to bed. way pass bed time. crs test tmr! wish me luck.. still havent read shawn's article =S
Monday, November 17, 2008 22:20 back to top?

there's an open book test for networking essential next monday! urghhhh..... but its open book though.

things to do:
#1 do practice quiz one for networking essentials.
#2 finish up writing the notes for chapter 5 and 6 of networking essentials.
#3 java notes of chapter 4 part two.
#4 start doing maths exam papers.
#5 work on gems porfolio.

hmm i guess thats all for now. gonna get my specs today. yay! white frammmeeeyyyy =DD
tomorrow is my crs test. =S i havent read shawn's article yet. will read it tonight.

smiled at u when u came and said hi. i found myself blushing =x urrghhh. then kept quiet. i think u really have that morning-no-mood-to-talk sickness =x hahx. thik came and it was better. u and thik planned to bbq me on my birthday. and u suggested kerosene -.- eevvviiilll....then u and thik went on and on about me being a human flame or something. haha. oh well. what goes around comes around.

i dont think im takin same bus with u today. maybe going jurong east IMM with sherr to find for handphone straps =D she's my twinnyy.. she's my black twinny im her white twinny. so no bus ride with u today... as for now, i kept staring at u most of the time. urrrghhh... oh well... a girl can dream can she.

having lunch with u and the others i guess. i found myself falling for you each and everyday.......

10:25 back to top?

another weekend. sunday.

this week's weekend, i spend my money on things that i don't need. its more of the things i want. urrghh. since yesterday i bought myself a $30 blouse; out of which, i don't need. then today, i make myself a specs which of course, i dont need.. yeah its more like i WANT that specs =x made myself a white frames metal kind of specs. somewhat different that what im currently wearing. idk why i chose white. maybe because its like something different. rather than the normal blue or black specs. its somewhat a mixture of black and white... lol. and it cost me $95.00 -.- at first i thought of making a cheaper ones. less than 50 or so? but the person gave the specs which frames only costs me $70 =x ohs im such a spendthrift =x
the specs is ready on tmr's evening. AAAAA i just rmbred something. anw. spend $120 this weekend =S shit la... lol!

dreamt about u last night. me, u and thik was in the bus to school. then that day, we're having maths test i think. lol. idk then we chatted together and such. and ure so.... happy and smiley like how u always am in real life when ure with thik. why do i keep dreaming about u? i dreamt of u twice last month.
ohs and about the something that i just rmbred.. tmr, im planning to take bus with u..... but tmr i have to meet my dad at jurong east.... urggh. wait i think i know what i can do. i can still take bus with u to clementi, then from there, i take mrt to jurong east. then meet my dad =D CAN!! hehex. oh well. i needa print my ideas assignment. oh well, hope to see u tmr and may u have a good mood. and i hope to for the sun to shine on my side.....

Sunday, November 16, 2008 15:54 back to top?

i spent $30 on a blouse today and i super regretting it. lol.

i thought i can just window-shopping and such. but instead, the sales person was like super friendly. so i went to ask "how much is this black with while flowery designs?" then she said $30. then i was like. "oh. err okay." then she went to find my size! i was like wth? no. im not buying it. maybe next time. then she found the size and went to measure it over my body. im like wth?? IM REALLY NOT BUYING OKAY?? then somehow she insisted that its cotton and it looks nice and such, i bought it. urrgghhhh..... i couldnt escape. lol. so yea. good bye my $30....
actually the blouse is not so bad. just simple designs. oh well....

bought myself a handphone long strap at mini toons. oh and i was at IMM. idk why i bought a blue color strap with pink flowers and with the words "I LOVE YOU". lol?? no im not in love with anyone. and i dont really fancy pink. but i like the blue color though. oh well.

today is a weekend. nothing about u. dreamt of u the previous night. cant rmbr the actual dream. i only rmbred that ur name was mention in my dream..... and i got to know about the whole story of the dp of urs. minli found it for u huh? and from thik, he told me, those people who knew, about my crush on u.. wants me u and u together? will that ever come true? i hope so..... another day of the weekend is tomorrow. monday. can we take the same bus together? i hope so.....

and i found myself staring at ur blank msn chat. staring at ur name and staring at ur display picture. is this a coincidence or a sign?-the academy is:after the last midnight show

Saturday, November 15, 2008 21:58 back to top?

okay. ive just changed my skin layout. no its not done by me. i wish i have the time to do one for myself like how i usually did for unforgotten memories but, nope im lazy and too busy to do so =D somewhat i like the words on this blog.
now that i've found you, i can't let you go.
i build my world around you, i need you so.
baby, even though
you dont need me.

lesson was fine today. somewhat. i guess. start the new chapter of Statistics. kinda okay for the start but later part, seems there's a very long formula to memorize. =S
hand up tutorial 3b and did tutorial 4.ohs and mdm theo asked me "are u confident to get A" lol i was kinda shocked. instead i replied "so-so" hahax.

got to sit beside u during tutorial. but i didnt say anything much. well because i was pissed with u. wanted to borrow ur papers but u ended up saying no no no. urrgghh. so i kept quiet the whole of tutorial lesson. asked thik for his paper instead. but he said he didnt finish it yet. so instead, he gave me ur paper for me to check answers. u didnt even say no. smiled when thik did that but i forced myself to be angry with you. lol.

u were'nt there to have lunch together. u went off.. again. meeting ur mum i assume?

went to have lunch later on with eshton and his gang. idk why but i was stoning all along. i kept super quiet. maybe first because i felt super left out because they're all talking about games. sherr was happy to talk about games with them. but im not. i just felt so... left out. so i kept quiet instead and ate my me soto. from time to time, i found myself stoning.

stoning about u? thinking about u? maybe. but i really dont know whats on my mind. i was somewhat pretty sure that you're somehow ignoring me. did u know about it? or are u waiting like how daniel said? am i supposed to think positive? and follow my heart? or think first before following the heart? urrrghhh

went to library after some time. sorry sherr i interrupted ur talk with eshton and the other guys about gaming. went to library and wrote somethings for my portfolio for gems. then sherr went to take a half an hour nap. went to toilet before going to gems.

gems was okay i guess. talked to weilong issit? or watever his name is from time to time. it was somewhat like a writing session today. have to describe on the clothing that is for presentation wise and which really suits ur body proportion, skin tone, etc. and it have to be very specific. i found out that i have lots of research to do. i needa find lots of pictures of clothings. in the internet there a lot! needa start researching and printing.

end of gems, i have the urge to sms you. well, my heart told me to sms and u will reply. but my mind said no u wont reply at all. so again, i followed my heart. smsed you, "hey. sorry if i annoyed u or something just now. was wondering, are u taking bus today?"
then waited for ur reply while walking towards the bustop. u didnt reply. went down the escalator, my heart was like telling me, wait for bus 106. i ignore that and took 105 instead. reached clementi while waiting for bus 154, bus 106 came. since the bus is the long bus, when people alight, the doors at the back are also open right? saw u. sitting, looking out at the window and listening to ur songs. then i went to look at my phone. and u did replied, "haha. no prob. im in the bus alr. i didnt notice ur msg". lol. silly boy.
replied you back saying something like i saw u in ur bus while im waiting for my bus. and u didnt reply after that. well, most prob, udk what to reply. hahx. anw, u did reply to my msg huh? i was somewhat glad by that. hmm then i wonder.... can someone ignore a person when they're face-to-face but still reply smses? i dont think so though. but idk. lol. seriously idk anything today. lol. oh well. at least u reply. i guess that somewhat brighten me up. thanks.....

Friday, November 14, 2008 21:30 back to top?

the sun is starting to shine after a long day of rain. why does it starts to shine when im feeling somewhat cloudy? why am i feeling as if im stuck on the fence?

did u made me confused? or i made myself confused? its like half of me saying, "go norlin. make it obvious. think positive." but another half is saying "no let it stay this way..... im afraid. im afraid he ignore me...." are u starting to ignore me? or am i just imagining things? or you did notice but u didnt wanna care about it that much? which issit......? fine. i admit. my blog is super obvious about you.... but im just stating my views, my happiness whenever im with you...... issitt wrong for me to that? i dont even know myself if u actually did came across my blog..... i dont even know if i should stop blogging about you.. seriously idk anything.... i really really dont know what to do........ can someone please help me........... please God. give me some answers....

anw, today is the day ive been waiting for. lol .actually not really. not my birthday anyway. it was Jon's birthday. came to school late today. mum was sick. went to help sis with chores before going to school. so ended up going out of house at 0715.

while i was in mrt, you called. asking where am i? i said im reaching soon. i told u to go first. but u said u didnt know the place... silly.........

reached schoool said sorry to thik and ashraf and thanks as they were waiting for me. went to class and such. maths lesson in the morning. ohs and Mdm theo had high hopes for me. she was like asking everyone if we did example 12 and 13. and she asked me, sherr and minli. then she stopped infront of me and said. "oh my potential A student. also didnt do." ouch! since now i know she has high hopes, then im gonna try to score A for maths xD will try. MUST try.

maths lesson ended and went to Java lesson today. watever the name of the lecturer said today my mind was nt in her class. i was super noisy =x oh we went to spam Jon inbox =x. we went to this singtel sms chat thingy and me and sherr somewhat spam him with Happy Birthday.... lol! then Java ended earlier today. went to walk around to find place to celebrate. ended up celebrating infront of cafe. lol. me and sherr and minli was preparing the water bombs =x

then we after we're done, we went to celebrate jon's birthday. he blew the candles and cut one line. then ended i was the one cutting the shares for everyone. by the time im done, Isaac was like. "Happy birthday to Norlin" lol. its not my cake. my birthday is in 1 more month and 13 more days. lol. then help to distribute the cake to everyone. shared cake with Minli. we gave one slice of the cake to the cafe uncle and one cake for bashiiinnngggg =x

ohs and our water bombs. ashraf was like siding thik i think. they took our water bombs okay?? idiot! hahax. then we played chasing around the area. lol. i didnt get hit. except as i was chasing ashraf, my sandals, the behind part snap =x lol. ashraf! u owe me one pair of shoe! lol. anw, we had fun chasing around and me and minli refill another 6 or so water bombs =x then got one point, ashraf hold thik down. then the water bomb was with chee siew. then he wanted to aim thik. but ended up kena ashraf! lol. WRONG TARGET! hahx

u were wet and u lifted ur shirt =x urrgghh stop it norlin

as usual, i was the cake smasher =x then after some time, shi bao decided to hold thik down while we girls, sherr and minli and I could throw him the water bomb and smash cake on him. lol. we did though. then it was fun. most of us got wet =x from the rain and also from the water bomb. hahx. my lower part kena the water bomb. a lil bit of my blouse kena the cake =x

ohs and thik went "angry" and wanted to smack some cake on minli. lol. she was like screaming and such. i went to thik and smack some cake on his face =x okay im evil =x then he came to chase me instead and i was shouting "NOT MY TUDONG OKAY! NOT MY TUDONG!!!" LOL. okay i really cant run due to my snap-ed sandals =( anw. maybe im cutting the straps behind then making it like flippy-floppy. or maybe i can just buy new sandals? but that sandals is not sliperry!!! and it costs me damn hell $19.90 okay? urrgghhh.. ill find something somehow.

then after we cleared and such, went back in to cafe. asked thik to open his birthday present. lol he got a TIARA. lol. and minli took photos of it. will ask her for the photos. then thik have to wear that tiara while minli taking photo. then ashraf also. ashraf was the most difficult. he was really struggling to not have that tiara on his head. so instead of putting it ON his head. i ended up holding it instead. lol. then Isaac also tried on the tiara. he was rather sporting.lol. and the tiara was lovely! lol.

then we all went off one by one. it was somewhat 2 by then. gotta meet up with Rohani! xD same polytechnic but never ever get to see each other. lol.

you left after everything and such. u said ure going boon lay to get urself a new top or something? sorry no bus ride today.... perhaps tomorrow?
ohs and i was trying not to look at u during Java lesson. but somewhat i couldnt help it. kept stealing glances at u. sometimes u look back. sometimes u dont....... what does that tell me? im back to stuck on the fence.... again.

went to meet Rohani near the fc3 entrance. and yeap. it was lovely to see her =D its been nearly one year since me, you and Liyana meet. maybe during the 3 weeks break. hmm then we had lunch at fc3. we chatted with each other and such. then after that walked with her to SAA. then went to her clubhouse. maybe im thinking of joining the Malay Society Club or something. maybe. then stayed there to solat then we went off. Rohani have remedial lessons at 330pm. so yeah. walked all the way together. kinda miss her. maybe next thursday we're going bowling =D lol. im like introducing bowling to everyone =S

someday. maybe u,thik,me and sherr should go bowling together. maybe. but i doubt that day will come.

i guess thats all for now.. needa do maths tonight. must look through at new chapter! lol. im really becoming like a nerd =x hahx. oh well. being a nerd is okay... I GUESS? hahx. oh well.
off to bed to take a nap =x
Thursday, November 13, 2008 16:26 back to top?

okay this whole post gonna be filled with pictures.
so yeah its been a fun day for me i guess. hahax.

morning. i was okay. except was kinda late =x but overall okay. got to see daniel walking towards hilltop. he was wearing yellow. lol. anw. reached school at 730 even though go out late.

you came at about 745 i think. smiled and say good morning =))

then bla sherr came late today. me ashraf and thik waited for her till about 810 or 815 like that. so went to class. did the FE lab. and for two times. i could connect properly and make it work. although the wires are in a total mess. hahx. oh well.

asked u for some answers. but u didnt give it to me. u said i should learn. bleh. ohs and u said u needed a massage today. thik was like "norlin? you want?" i was *blush*-ing

then lesson ended and went over to T913. networking essentials lab class. was okay i guess. nothing much happened along the way. oh well. reached class. tap card. sherr loves smacking the machine and making it restart =S haha.

and stared behind ur back =x

nothing much happened in NE lab. went to have lunch later with Karthik,Ashraf,Wayne,Liming, Sherr and myself at fc4. ate the brani rice and it was super super HOT! lol.

while queiu-ing up for food, asked u what are u eating. u said mee goreng. but u end up eating something else. the answers that u gave me was short. i was worried that ure starting to back away.........

ate our food and such. then went to buy drink with sherr. ashraf left shortly after we returned. oh well. me and sherr then drank and play with our drinks =x then after we're done, we decided to sit at box. but when reached at the box, it was kinda dirty so we decided to walk to moberly. halfway there, i suggested. "why dont we play bowling?" sherr agreed and off we went to guildhouse.

reached guildhouse. paid and played one game first. and i cant help rmbring my bowling memories with you daniel.... you know? the way u thought me how to bowl properly? i kept doing it. i simply couldnt forget it. oh well. since its been 2 months or so when we last played bowling, our scores were pretty ugly =S well, more like my scores. =x

we both decided to play another game though. since its still early. we got that stupid sports day thingy at 3. at that time, it was only 1330. second game,was kinda better. the second picture was my score. me and sherr got the same score for the first throw and the way the pins were exact same. after that throw, we went to take pictures and relax ourselves a little xD on the 5th frame, our score was the same too. hahax. lucky us =D


this was shawn's score. lol. and sherr's phone. oh well. kinda nice xD

Wednesday, November 12, 2008 19:44 back to top?

i got myself in a mess but, oh well. =x

"i dont feel like going. oh well."

then FE tutorial. i forgot to bring my txtbook =x oh did one question on the board. and sherr kept calling ashraf meow. lol.

well, nothing much after that. lesson ended.

you got cca today. so no bus ride together =( anw. maybe tmr. oh adn tmr i got some sports day thingy. have to go. attendance is compulsory. but maybe tmr more time spend with u? please do. and bus ride?

i just thought of something. i want to know ur feelings fast. if our feelings is the same, then we take it slow... not getting in r/s. but just be super close with u in school.... as for ur feelings now? idk if its ever gonna be the same as mine..... ??

Tuesday, November 11, 2008 19:38 back to top?

i guess..... monday is just not my day.......

chatted with daniel and sherr at night about azri...... got to know the whole story from daniel.......
i was super disappointed...... why did i do to get used by people easily........ azri was not how I expected him to be....... daniel kept saying sorry about the whole azri thing....... what can i do anyway.....?

i feel like running away from everyone..... cry and shout as much as I want...... but no... i cant do that..... im never that kind of person... im always the sunshiine kind of person..... but heck im not today...... i woke up with swollen eyes..... tuesday...... how i wish i could just stay in bed the whole day and cry and get myself sick again...... put up the courage to smile at my mum, nieces, sis...... but i couldnt do it..... i always and forever suck at faking smiles.....

after bathing.... sit on the bed and started crying...... what did i ever do to deserve all this....... why are guys treating me this way? why is azri using me........ im nt some useless girl...... im not..... i have feelings..... all i wanted was a clean and long lasting relationship...... long lasting relationship like how i was with daniel......

who am i to blame? am i to blame azri or myself...... wtf am i so stupid.......... urrrrrggghhhhhh............... im starting to hate myself.............
09:48 back to top?

Monday.

i was waiting for this day somewhat. Waiting to meet Azri.

morning was fine. was kinda early. smsed Azri in the morning and such. so yea. looking forward to meet him after lesson. saw daniel walking towards hilltop. i didnt saw him looking my wya though. but i rmbred him saying " if you can see me, then i can see you". lessons were okay. got distracted with the use of laptop during FE lecturer. then after FE, NE tutorial, is always a pain in the butt kind of lesson. stuper boring. -.-

lunch break. had lunch with Sherr at Cafe. Just the two of us. ate that japanese curry. reminds me of daniel somehow. and i have no idea why. well, maybe to how he always kacau me me when i eat. looked at me when i eat and such... haishh..... after finishing my lunch, helped sherr with her CRS article. she's having her test tmr. mine is next week. paired up with Shaun. so tomorrow, i can actually come to school at 12. but im not so sure. maybe having breakfast with Azri. maybe not. if not, then i come school at 9 plus, do library duty until sherr finish her test then maybe we can have have early lunch.

then java and such. kinda okay i guess. then idea. ended super early. like what? less than half an hour kind of lesson. then called azri, told him, i finished lesson. then he came and me, sherr and the other guys, for some reason waited for him also. then he reached at about 4 plus. we didnt went to eat at jp. he send me home. we chatted and such. so yea. nothing much. except im not used to everything...... i cant help but rmbr about daniel.... urrgghhh........

it was so much better with you daniel.....

Monday, November 10, 2008 19:48 back to top?

another day of the weekends.

went to jp with mum and dad. ended up having lunch together with bro's family. bought a silver colored heels xD other than that, nothing much.

still smsing azri.
meeting him tomorrow after school. idk why but i feel comfortable with when he smsed me.
he called just now. got to hear his voice. well, as dan had said, he's soft-spoken kind of guy. i can be pretty loud sometimes. oh well. im looking forward to meet him tmr. aite, im off to do my java notes. see ya.


Sunday, November 9, 2008 18:01 back to top?

weekends.

intended to study. but ended up going shopping with mum and my nieces at jurong west. its super irritating bringing my nieces around.... urrghh. anyway, i bought one white and yellow sleeveless dress, and brown with lines pants, white long sleeve shirt. and finally i fix my brown heels.

met a new person today.
azri.
he smsed me yesterday night. after i off my phone. saw his sms this morning. about 0550 am, then replied his sms. he replied my sms at about 630. ended up i couldnt sleep. smsed him and read meg cabot book. basically ive been smsing him the whole day somewhat.

and idk what else to blog now. idk if im waiting for azri to sms again. okay azri just smsed.
see ya.
Saturday, November 8, 2008 21:07 back to top?

GORGEOUS

I HAD A HAPPY HAPPY DAY

especially with you ashraf.

before i went to school, i told myself something in the mirror. .

"today, you're gonna talk to ashraf. norliin talk to ashraf. okay?" argh who cares if i type ur name out. im tired of kept typing mr a.

went to school, blast hsm3 songs in my ears.

kept thinking about u.

.
went to look out for daniel. no sign. oh well.

you came. and right when i saw u, i blushed. and i have no idea why. said hi and smiled to you. u returned the smile. awwww. gorgeous. we're the only one who was early. i have no idea what to talk to u about. im afraid if i start talking, ill blush. so i ended asking u, "today is the lunch issit? i just realised this morning, thik smsed" and you replied. "yeap." i could feel myself blushing. why ashraf why..

slowly, sherr came and others too. walked to class. waited outside class for mdm theo.

looked at u once a while and i have no idea why. =S all i ever wanted is to be close with you.....

oh well, mdm theo came and class started and such. and it was a WONDERFUL lesson. mdm theo wanted some people to write for her the matrices for reflection, translation, scaling and shear. she asked, wayne, ashraf and shibao.

you did some of the reflection part. then mdm theo asked, what about the translation? you volunteered to do it. so you were like "i know! i know! i know! *jumps to other side of the board*" but the matrix that u wrote was for shear. then u realised it was wrong. then u cancel the whole thing. then mdm theo asked again. "what about shear?" then u wrote down the whole thing all over again. awww silly boyyy

tutorial was next. i was SUPER alert today. well part of it was because i did my tutorial first. so watever she asked, i was the first one to answer. then she asked me to do one question. well i did everything. the steps and such. but ended up, i got matrix of 3x3 all [0]. lol i began to panic =S i calculate using calculator and i was like really panicking!!! lol. end up, minli have to write the answer and i have to go and check and put a tick. lol. cute teacher! MY WEAKNESS: CARELESS MISTAKE.

then lesson ended, walked with sherr and minli to fc5.

you were walking with karthik and idk who =s infront.

then along the way, chatted with minli and sherr.

told minli about u. oh well. girls are good with secrets. xD like minli always said "BESTFRIENDS FOREVER" lol.

then reached outside fc5. the benches opposite atm machine.

you walked to atm machine then to toilet. AGAIN. then you came over to sit on the floor when u can actually sit beside me. lol.

sherr and minli went to popular. so left me, ashraf and thik. so we were reminiscing about orientation. which was 6-7 months ago? lol. and the game that we played. oh its so fast.

the first malay guy i met. you.

then sherr and minli came over and we talked about gyms and harry potter. oh ya HP! minli and sherr was like talking about this draco guy something. sherr supports him and such. then i was like looking at karthik and ashraf. "u not talking about harry potter? how pretty hermoine is? how gorgeous daniel radcliffe is?" lol. then karthik came out with " oh, u know, that daniel radclifffe? was nude infront a lot of people. with a girl. who was also nude. and they were like *ding ding ding* " I WAS THERE BURSTING OUT LAUGHING NON STOP! I KEPT RMBR HIS DING DING DING SOUND. lol. then sherr started doing the ding ding sound also. and i was laughing non stop. haha. so i went over to walk a lil further to stop myself from hearing that ding ding ding sound from sherr. after some time, i settled down. and acted as per normal.

after some time, mr leong came and we went to fc 5 together.

you opened the door for me. actually not really. haha. u always opened door for anyone xD

then found a seat and settle down. ashraf and karthik asked about orders. asked minli, sherr, then i asked ashraf.

you eating zinger.

i ordered cheesefries. xD even though I CANT TASTE MY FOOD!

u put ur bag at the other table while shi bao and his friends sat at the table infront of us. so i told sherr should i put ur bag beside me? since they all sit there?" and she said yea go ahead. i was afraid to do so. who knows u got some precious letter in it. or something. sherr said just do it la. so i did. carried ur bag full of care and went to touch the top part. and said "awwww" *melts* anw, helped u to ask for tissues and forks and spoons and straws. while u were carrying the tray, i told you, "sorry i carried ur bag to the other side. you dont mind?" u replied "nope." *blushes*

food came and such. but ur zinger not ready yet.

you were sitting beside me. but i realised im kinda close to you. =x sherr was close to minli! lol.

we ate cheese fries. me and my tasteless buds. stupid antibiotics.

watch u eat sometime. *blushes* our knees brushes sometimes under the table. i accidentally stepped on ur foot =x sorry that was unintentional okay?" then we chatted with Mr leong and such and smile here smile there xD and u asked what option taking next year? "web tech!" then u said, "then im taking security." NOOOOOOOOO!! =x then i told u,thik,minli,sherr "my birthday wish for this year all of us be in the same class!!" lol.

after some time ur zinger came, and u ate. VERY FAST =x oh and while ure away, me and sherr took ur specs. actually sherr was the one who hides it. i'm innocent! lol. and told sherr u look cute when u dont know anything. =x gorgeous xD

then chat somemore with Mr leong, and after sometime he left. then chatted with minli, sherr, ashraf and thik. asked them whats ur weekend plans?

playfully joined u to kacau thik about going to hotel with gf or something. lol.

after asking the others, then i said " then? nobody ask me about my plan?" sherr said "we dont intend to ask" then i like " hey!! *push her*" then she ended up pushing me harder and i nearly fall on ashraf.

later i knew, sherr told me u were somewhat blushing when i nearly fall on u =x awww gorgeous and cute! u then got phonecalls twice. one was from idk. u went to talk far away. second phone call, was ur sis. well, how i know? we went to met ur sis later. then u said okay u gotta rush. then me and sherr was like, "did u realise something?" "oh ya. specs." sherr was somewhat asking him to say "meow" i wanted to take ur photo =x but u covered. oh well.

after some time, ashraf got his specs back and we walked to mrt together with karthik. minli left to her club. so left me sherr, ashraf and thik.

walked to mrt while arguing with ashraf and sherr. lol. actually we're thinking of the presents to buy for thik. but ashraf was rather annoying making me repeat the qn in malay 3 times or more. so i kept hitting him.

sorry!! =( then u agreed to buy the cake instead. present wise, maybe we should go together. two of us? =x maybe 3 of us xD

then reached mrt, thik went off, ashraf met with his sis.

so tall. somewhat the same height as u. lol. u came over, purposely ask. "girlfriend huh?" lol " no arh.sis" lol. gorgeous.

then after that, walked to box. and sat.

sat beside u and i realised, i was pretty close. but u didnt move an inch. xD i like u be on my side. and i have no idea why.

we then plan for karthik's birthday bash and jonathan's. lol it was funny to how we planned. we hope it work.

and for once, ure gonna join the fun. needa bring extra clothes. and well, asked sherr, " go out on my birthday?" sure. i know ill get birthday bash damn bad. oh well. its fun xD more fun if ure around.

then went for gems.

said bye and smile to u.

went for gems and bla the classes were much better. discovered my skin tone. cool with blue tint. and we played with color combination.
lesson ended 10 mins earlier.

i was itching to give u a sms. asking u if u taking bus today.

walked to library, return books, grab some book, borrowed, walk out.

along the way, took out my phone, and sms, "hey, just wondering, are u taking bus today?" while walking towards bustop, i was praying u reply. please reply please reply please reply! and u did "nope. i got cca today. not going home" replied u back "aite sure. take care" idk why but i was super happy that u replied. i felt super relieved. are u starting to notice it? i took 106 to clementi station. wishing we could take the same bus together. smiling at myself because u replied me. oh ashraf. ure making me feel so weird. a good kind of weird. reached clementi, 154 came quite a while and was happy. lol smiled somemore. and here i am. waiting to chat with you more often. get to know u. cant wait to see u on monday. can we take the same bus on monday? please say yes. ill be happier xD

Friday, November 7, 2008 20:16 back to top?