i guess..... monday is just not my day.......

chatted with daniel and sherr at night about azri...... got to know the whole story from daniel.......
i was super disappointed...... why did i do to get used by people easily........ azri was not how I expected him to be....... daniel kept saying sorry about the whole azri thing....... what can i do anyway.....?

i feel like running away from everyone..... cry and shout as much as I want...... but no... i cant do that..... im never that kind of person... im always the sunshiine kind of person..... but heck im not today...... i woke up with swollen eyes..... tuesday...... how i wish i could just stay in bed the whole day and cry and get myself sick again...... put up the courage to smile at my mum, nieces, sis...... but i couldnt do it..... i always and forever suck at faking smiles.....

after bathing.... sit on the bed and started crying...... what did i ever do to deserve all this....... why are guys treating me this way? why is azri using me........ im nt some useless girl...... im not..... i have feelings..... all i wanted was a clean and long lasting relationship...... long lasting relationship like how i was with daniel......

who am i to blame? am i to blame azri or myself...... wtf am i so stupid.......... urrrrrggghhhhhh............... im starting to hate myself.............
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