i have failed to go on my less food; no gassy drink diet :[
i ate ONE plate of chicken rice when im supposed to eat half! mcdonald chocolate flavour burst icecream! long john silver meal with fizzy mango (or something like that?) - gassy drink! definite nono! hershey pie. (why do i keep be reminded of "you" when i eat that! stop thinking abt "you", please brain! "you" dont even talk to me anymore!)
the only healthy thing i drank today was the yoghurt drink! wth, so much of me wanna lose weight huh!
after csm; met darling at dover bustop. took bus at 105. and i realised that darling do put his hands on my side to hold me. (which he doesnt do it often before) love it though :]
nice to be in his arms :]
went to IMM and first things first ! we went straight to Daisooo. in the lift we took one picture :D
wanted to find grey felt there :[ but no such luck.
i did say that i wanted to get only one thing from Daisoo. but i ended up buying 4 :X black felt nice circle-ish box supposingly my laptop casing. (i tried; supposingly it shud fit, but it didnt -.-) and this really cute small white water bottle. (superbly cute la! like 200ml of water can put inside but even so, i can always refil it right :D)
after that we tookk pictureees down the travelator. its always our picture opportunity there :D
we walked and walked and ate ice cream at Mcdonalds then went on a hunt of searching for skinny jeans. hahax. well i wanted those skinnies! the cheapest skinnies that i cud find was in FOX which was $29.90
the other skinny i found was from cotton on $39.90 i think i rather buy from new future jeans than cotton on since they have more options.
neways I wanted to go to Peninsular with darling soon. my friend said, cheaper skinnies are sold there.
hmmmm.. i found a blogshop that sells skinnines at $19.00 super considering of buyiiingg~
neways. after such "skinnies hunting" we decided to go home :D took the shuttle bus to JE MRT and took more photoooss XD
so yeap. had a wonderful day with love :D thanks for the day darling.
happy 1y5 anniversary. im looking forward for next month! double the celebration! 1y6m + darlin's bday! :D
alright. im getting tired. stupid laptop. why must u be super heavy!
thanks love for everything that you have done for me & this relationship; be less stubborn && listen to me sometimes kay :D ill try my best to be less jealous-ness
love you ridzman. i really hope our plans for the future will really come true. engagement + wedding! wow-ness!
lols. i realised i like to keep adding -ness to some words nowadays. hahax. oh well. fyp meeting tmr after csm. haish. back to vb all over again :[
new terms starts tmr. and here I am not sleeping yet when tomorrow i have classes that starts at 8 in the morning -.-
was looking around for vb stuffs when i stopped at fb and look randomly at people's pictures. why. why are they so pretty! nice skin. doesnt have the need to keep relying on specs. pretty and outgoing.
the more i look, the more demoralised i am.
i wanna be thin. like seriously, i need to lose that FLABBY belly!
i wanna wear jeans that on size 28 not size 30. i wanna buy clothes that size M not size L
I wanna start to dress properly. but unfortunately, i don't know what suits me.
most of the clothes i bought, was on impulse. nice = buy.
but some end up i cant wear cause im such a FATTY! i feel like i shud really cut down on food.
like one meal a day or something? or maybe, one rice plate per day. and even so, i shall eat half.
seriously, what else i can do besides running//eating less to lose weight? drinkk plain water instead of gassy.
oh well. i shall give it a shot tmr.
gonna skip lunch. after lab, rush to bro's house, send nieces to school at 1, then come back to class for csm.
im gonna miss icd lects for a few weeks.
meeting darling after csm though. tmr's our 1y5m anniversary :] thanks love for everything.
its been great so far since "that day" no arguments. happy mornings and happy night sleeps :] thanks for playing your part.
im glad when i woke up everyday, the thinking of "you are going to leave me" is back of my mind. or that "unsecure" feeling too.
i woke up. happy smiles. knowing you wud at least i cud hear your voice twice a day :]
i love you ridzman :]
but seriously, i need to lose weight. stupid flabby belly!
aite. i shud be sleeping now.
ohs and raiinbowkrafts doing great so far. just now i made 10 bow hairbands in 2 hours :O
Its nearing the end of the second week of holiday and seriously I didnt enjoy my holiday very much.!
I have been spending my time doing fyp all the way trying to make the program work. and thats the only thing that makes me so busy -.-
i really ought to be spending my holiday doing some shopping or such! and also i have to get the fyp working before 23 June 2010. Before meeting with the clients. that sucks terribly!
on the bright side, im quite happy with my mst results actually :] 60 for fwt && 78 for icd gooddd! i so need to get back my 3 point something semester gpa!
its been a week since I last met darling. and we went to meet up todayyy~
*WINKS*
pictures to be uploaded later~~
one more week till holidays end! thats suck!
class outing next week on 24 in Sentosa! how i wish darling cud go! hmph!
aku ngerti kamu, kau ngerti aku aku sayang kamu selamanyaaaa
OMG. im in love with the song YANK by waliband! all thanks to my darlingggg :]
this is gonna be a long post. i havent been updating quite a lot. cause im just plain lazy and been studying for mst anddd going with out with darling & gf, rohanii!
so yeap. hmmm.
31 may 10 my sales call presentation. got to finally wear wonderful black super high heels :] skipped icd lecture with thik,ash and minli to prepare for icd. so yeap. all in all everything goes just fine :]
after that at 3, met up with Rohanii and she insisted to go to Chinese Garden. even though i was with her, memories of me and darling going there on our first date was fresh in my mind. so even though it was drizzling, we still went in.
i rarely go to chinese garden with darling though. we usually go to japanese garden instead. so since i went chinese garden with rohani, at least its quite a new exploration for me :] we both found the nearest bench and settle there and snapping pictures. didnt bother to even find for shelter because my feet couldnt walk any further. thankkss to my "wonderful" heels. lols.
after that, we went home. happy with the amount of pictures we took for that day :]
at night, it wasnt much happy-ness at all. argued with darling and cried myself to sleep. swollen eyes and couldnt really sleep cause darling said something like as if we are really breaking up.
01 june 10 woke up with a heavy heart. yes skipped icd for a day. no csm anyway. then went to meet up with darling at 10 plus or so? -cant rmbr
then we went to chinese garden. he was late. i wasnt in the mood at all. and he reached at 1020+. and i have waited for 20 minutes plus for him. seriously i was mad. but i put it aside since i dont want to start the argument early in the morning.
we both walked that pathway down to chinese garden entrance. and as we walked, i rmbr every single detail while we were there before. finally we reached our so-called "place". a nice shelter place. the first place he bought me on our first date.
we sat on the opposite benches and i kept staring at that bench. the things he said. the things he did on that very first date on 4feb09 everything was crystal clear. the first picture we took. it was just perfect. and i realised i couldnt stop my tears anymore.
16 months ago, everything in our little world seems so perfect. seems so nice. so peaceful. after 6 months or more. things started happening in our life. our relationship wasnt that perfect anymore. wasnt that smooth. 16 months now, we were there arguing and on the verge of breaking up. we both didnt want to say "that-word" because we still love each other. i asked, "u masih sygkan i tk?" and he said he does. why love but u still want me to leave you?
and he told me he just couldnt hurt me anymore. seriously i dont care being hurt. no matter how hurt i am, im still in love with you. thats the craziest thing about love. u dont much care about how hurt u are. but u manage to keep holding on.
i told him i wont break up unless u really found someone better or tell me you don't love me. and u didnt say any of that, so there is not a valid reason for me to leave you. i was crying badly enuf and so he told me something else that made me even worst.
i cried so much till my chest hurts real bad + difficulties in breathing + nearly wanna faint. you tried holding me and asking me if im okay but i let go. i don't do that unless im very mad at you. you should know urself that i love when ure holding me. but at that time i wasnt.
i was just so mad. super mad. cried for nearly more than half an hour or so. and i cry and cry and u sat there, regretting? -i didnt know cause i was busy crying my eyes out and trying not to faint. i knew u were crying. but at that point i didnt care. how could u even do that to me. that was my main concern.
after crying so much. i started getting on my normal breathing and after sometime i cried again. you started to hold me again. this time i just couldnt let go. u hold me and i cried in ur arms. at that point of time all i wanted to do was to get up, return him the ring and walk away without looking back. but i think back, no i will regret of doing that because i did that because of anger. not because of what i really wanted.
so after sometime we cool down. talked it out slowly. and we both decided to give each other another chance. its more like to give one last try on this relationship. another chance for this relationship to work.
i was just so close to tell him ill support him to continue his studies. and started trusting him fully but you lose it love. you need to gain it back.
after some time. we were fine. we took some pictures and began this new trick. if one person says something that could make the other person angry, quickly give the angry person a kiss on the cheek. lols. it works and we both will be laughing endlessly.
so here are the pics. eventhough we were both having swollen eyes. -okay more like im having.
then we took bus to jp and had our lunch there. and oh yeah we were at banquet. we were sitting in the middle of two groups of people. on my left there was this two guys. talking about some service provider and complaining how terrible their service was. really condemn-ing. i was looking at darling and was trying not to laugh. we werent eavesdropping its just that there we close to us and we could hear what they were talking about loud and clear. lols. and after condemn-ing, they talk about Blackshot! im was mouthing, "OMG!" to darling. lols.
then after sometime they left. what we ate that day was related to the another group of people on my right. it was a couple. darling had food from the hotplate stall while i got food from the wanton stall. as for the couple on our right, the guy had food from wanton stall and the gf had the hotplate food. and we both were like lols! so coincidental. hahax.
thennn we ended the dayy and it was a happy ending day.
02june10 my tp presentation. overall we did great :] although while minli was presenting she kept looking at me for words to help her with. lols. even if i found words i cant show to her. lols.
after lesson, met rohanii and she decided to go Mustafa centre to find bangles. lols and it was the furthest i went with her since we have to go to outram and change to purple line to farrer park. we reached there went to city link mall or something like that to have our lunch at Mcdonalds.
after that we find our way to Mustafa centre and really when we were in there we were like in another world. hehex. rohanii found her bangles and i bought one set of silver bangles too :]] they are cheapp and i cant resist! lols. so yeap we went around there and such and then went to city link mall again to just explore the shopping centre.
rohanii found a nice wallet that she couldnt stop thinking of and she bought it. i wanted to buy a wallet too. this really nice red -sexy wallet. lols. buttt no new set. sad-ed then didnt buy lorr. hahax.
went to cotton on and found this really nice long sleeve button down shirt. which was only at 15 but unfortunately there was only M size and superbly big.
then we both decided to go to JP instead. thinking of buying the wallet at John Little. same situation, no new set. haiish.
then went to cotton on and found the same long sleeve shirt but this time they have S size! wheee~ and i bought it at $15!
thenn i went to look for another two more dresses at $16 for both at dakra. unfortunately one cant fit. sad-ed oh well at least one is only at $8.
then went to Talisman and bought belt + two sets of bangles for $10. love the bangles la. very veryy attractive! lols.
so yeap ive spent $15+16+10 = $41 ++ -on food and such phewww and so here i am broke. lols! but great fun. love the bangles!
03june10 which is finallyy today. and its gonna be tmr in 1 hour time. lols!
oh yeah today my plan was to ask darling accompany me study for mst. so i dont miind travelling to woodlands just to meet up with him. to save his transport fare. seee im such a good gf! *mmuackx!* lols!
anyways i was halfway going to civics centre, he called up change of plan. he wants me to accompany him to Eunos for job fair. we took 966 from woodlands and it was the longest ride this year with him cause it was jam-ing. lols. so we took pictures!
hmm yeap and in the bus we talk and take pictures and reached Eunos at nearly 12 or 1 plus? had our lunch then went to the community centre. and it was super sunny la and darling kept complaining hot hot. *mmuuackx!* hahax!
reached the CC and we saw a lot of people so we decided to leave it and went to walk to geylang and get drinks from 711 and took 51 to PSA building. as again bus rides are always fun.
reached PSA building, darling filled up form and took 30 home. and in bus 30 darling introduce me to that YANK song and PESONA song! im in love with yank so much and ive been repeating the song in my itune for 22 times. lols!
even the youtube is cute!and i wonder why issit yank why not yang as in the shortform of sayang. or they type wrongly? oh well. im in love with it now!
alriigghhtt. i have such a wonderful day. im tired. and i have to study for icd. two more papers to finish.
shit! MST ON MONDAY! fwt! i havent even start studying! *dies* lols.
oh well! nitex!
and the feeling of love like how it was when we first stead is the same feeling that i am feeling now. carefree and no arguments. i really hope this relationship works. and we wont argue anymore. i hope we could continue that *mmuackx* thing. it really helps to cool down the other party fast. hehex!
