3 days of entry!
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OMG. im in love with the song YANK by waliband!
all thanks to my darlingggg :]
this is gonna be a long post. i havent been updating quite a lot. cause im just plain lazy and been studying for mst anddd going with out with darling & gf, rohanii!
so yeap.
hmmm.
31 may 10
my sales call presentation.
got to finally wear wonderful black super high heels :]
skipped icd lecture with thik,ash and minli to prepare for icd.
so yeap. all in all everything goes just fine :]
after that at 3, met up with Rohanii and she insisted to go to Chinese Garden.
even though i was with her, memories of me and darling going there on our first date was fresh in my mind.
so even though it was drizzling, we still went in.
i rarely go to chinese garden with darling though. we usually go to japanese garden instead. so since i went chinese garden with rohani, at least its quite a new exploration for me :]
we both found the nearest bench and settle there and snapping pictures.
didnt bother to even find for shelter because my feet couldnt walk any further.
thankkss to my "wonderful" heels. lols.
after that, we went home. happy with the amount of pictures we took for that day :]
at night, it wasnt much happy-ness at all.
argued with darling and cried myself to sleep. swollen eyes and couldnt really sleep cause darling said something like as if we are really breaking up.
01 june 10
woke up with a heavy heart. yes skipped icd for a day.
no csm anyway. then went to meet up with darling at 10 plus or so? -cant rmbr
then we went to chinese garden. he was late. i wasnt in the mood at all. and he reached at 1020+. and i have waited for 20 minutes plus for him. seriously i was mad.
but i put it aside since i dont want to start the argument early in the morning.
we both walked that pathway down to chinese garden entrance.
and as we walked, i rmbr every single detail while we were there before.
finally we reached our so-called "place".
a nice shelter place. the first place he bought me on our first date.
we sat on the opposite benches and i kept staring at that bench.
the things he said. the things he did on that very first date on 4feb09
everything was crystal clear. the first picture we took. it was just perfect.
and i realised i couldnt stop my tears anymore.
16 months ago, everything in our little world seems so perfect.
seems so nice. so peaceful. after 6 months or more. things started happening in our life. our relationship wasnt that perfect anymore.
wasnt that smooth.
16 months now, we were there arguing and on the verge of breaking up.
we both didnt want to say "that-word" because we still love each other.
i asked, "u masih sygkan i tk?"
and he said he does. why love but u still want me to leave you?
and he told me he just couldnt hurt me anymore.
seriously i dont care being hurt. no matter how hurt i am, im still in love with you.
thats the craziest thing about love. u dont much care about how hurt u are. but u manage to keep holding on.
i told him i wont break up unless u really found someone better or tell me you don't love me. and u didnt say any of that, so there is not a valid reason for me to leave you.
i was crying badly enuf and so he told me something else that made me even worst.
i cried so much till my chest hurts real bad + difficulties in breathing + nearly wanna faint.
you tried holding me and asking me if im okay but i let go.
i don't do that unless im very mad at you.
you should know urself that i love when ure holding me.
but at that time i wasnt.
i was just so mad.
super mad.
cried for nearly more than half an hour or so.
and i cry and cry and u sat there, regretting? -i didnt know cause i was busy crying my eyes out and trying not to faint.
i knew u were crying.
but at that point i didnt care.
how could u even do that to me. that was my main concern.
after crying so much. i started getting on my normal breathing and after sometime i cried again.
you started to hold me again. this time i just couldnt let go.
u hold me and i cried in ur arms.
at that point of time all i wanted to do was to get up, return him the ring and walk away without looking back.
but i think back, no i will regret of doing that because i did that because of anger. not because of what i really wanted.
so after sometime we cool down.
talked it out slowly.
and we both decided to give each other another chance.
its more like to give one last try on this relationship.
another chance for this relationship to work.
i was just so close to tell him ill support him to continue his studies.
and started trusting him fully but you lose it love.
you need to gain it back.
after some time. we were fine.
we took some pictures and began this new trick.
if one person says something that could make the other person angry, quickly give the angry person a kiss on the cheek. lols.
it works and we both will be laughing endlessly.
so here are the pics.
eventhough we were both having swollen eyes. -okay more like im having.
then we took bus to jp and had our lunch there.
and oh yeah we were at banquet. we were sitting in the middle of two groups of people.
on my left there was this two guys.
talking about some service provider and complaining how terrible their service was.
really condemn-ing. i was looking at darling and was trying not to laugh.
we werent eavesdropping its just that there we close to us and we could hear what they were talking about loud and clear. lols.
and after condemn-ing, they talk about Blackshot!
im was mouthing, "OMG!" to darling. lols.
then after sometime they left.
what we ate that day was related to the another group of people on my right.
it was a couple.
darling had food from the hotplate stall while i got food from the wanton stall.
as for the couple on our right, the guy had food from wanton stall and the gf had the hotplate food.
and we both were like lols! so coincidental. hahax.
thennn we ended the dayy and it was a happy ending day.
02june10
my tp presentation.
overall we did great :] although while minli was presenting she kept looking at me for words to help her with. lols. even if i found words i cant show to her. lols.
after lesson, met rohanii and she decided to go Mustafa centre to find bangles.
lols and it was the furthest i went with her since we have to go to outram and change to purple line to farrer park.
we reached there went to city link mall or something like that to have our lunch at Mcdonalds.
after that we find our way to Mustafa centre and really when we were in there we were like in another world. hehex.
rohanii found her bangles and i bought one set of silver bangles too :]]
they are cheapp and i cant resist! lols.
so yeap we went around there and such and then went to city link mall again to just explore the shopping centre.
rohanii found a nice wallet that she couldnt stop thinking of and she bought it.
i wanted to buy a wallet too. this really nice red -sexy wallet. lols.
buttt no new set. sad-ed then didnt buy lorr. hahax.
went to cotton on and found this really nice long sleeve button down shirt.
which was only at 15 but unfortunately there was only M size and superbly big.
then we both decided to go to JP instead.
thinking of buying the wallet at John Little.
same situation, no new set. haiish.
then went to cotton on and found the same long sleeve shirt but this time they have S size! wheee~ and i bought it at $15!
thenn i went to look for another two more dresses at $16 for both at dakra.
unfortunately one cant fit. sad-ed
oh well at least one is only at $8.
then went to Talisman and bought belt + two sets of bangles for $10.
love the bangles la. very veryy attractive! lols.
so yeap ive spent $15+16+10 = $41 ++ -on food and such
phewww and so here i am broke. lols!
but great fun. love the bangles!
03june10
which is finallyy today.
and its gonna be tmr in 1 hour time. lols!
oh yeah today my plan was to ask darling accompany me study for mst.
so i dont miind travelling to woodlands just to meet up with him.
to save his transport fare. seee im such a good gf! *mmuackx!* lols!
anyways i was halfway going to civics centre, he called up change of plan.
he wants me to accompany him to Eunos for job fair.
we took 966 from woodlands and it was the longest ride this year with him cause it was jam-ing. lols. so we took pictures!
hmm yeap and in the bus we talk and take pictures and reached Eunos at nearly 12 or 1 plus? had our lunch then went to the community centre. and it was super sunny la and darling kept complaining hot hot. *mmuuackx!* hahax!
reached the CC and we saw a lot of people so we decided to leave it and went to walk to geylang and get drinks from 711 and took 51 to PSA building.
as again bus rides are always fun.
reached PSA building, darling filled up form and took 30 home.
and in bus 30 darling introduce me to that YANK song and PESONA song!
im in love with yank so much and ive been repeating the song in my itune for 22 times. lols!
even the youtube is cute!and i wonder why issit yank why not yang as in the shortform of sayang. or they type wrongly? oh well.
im in love with it now!
alriigghhtt.
i have such a wonderful day.
im tired.
and i have to study for icd.
two more papers to finish.
shit! MST ON MONDAY!
fwt! i havent even start studying! *dies*
lols.
oh well! nitex!
and the feeling of love like how it was when we first stead is the same feeling that i am feeling now. carefree and no arguments.
i really hope this relationship works.
and we wont argue anymore. i hope we could continue that *mmuackx* thing.
it really helps to cool down the other party fast. hehex!
nittee!
Thursday, June 3, 2010
21:49
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