this thing called love.

you're not around today. went out with your bestie to watch the ndp combined rehearsal or watsoever.
its okay darling.
i understand.

our 5th month anniversary tomorrow.
everything's great. better and better each day.
especially with you by my side.

during this five more months, never have i ever thought of betraying you nor leaving you.
i never felt happier and so much satisfied in this relationship of ours.

its true.
sometimes i wish we could be like other couples.
meeting out often, spending time with each other.
but i guess every relationship is different and unique.
some might prefer going out and active during the day or night.
some might like spending time in gardens. watching the day goes by.
but us, although we're not able to meet each other physically, we still do webcam almost every night.
i guess thats what making us special.

i admit.
i do need time to the changes.
to the fact that i would not be able to meet you as often as I want to.
but its okay. i will try my best to get used to it.

you are like the air that i breathe in every day.
when i wake up in the morning, you're the first thing that came to my mind.
same goes as when before i close my eyes to sleep.

i kept missing you.
even though i do see you every single night.
(well mostly when you're not busy meeting clients)

darling,
things has been great for both of us.
never would i want this relationship to end.

we both shall make,
syaiful herwan,syabilah hernatasha,syaiful herman and syabilah herlinda
come true okay? =D

i love you so much.
and i miss you real bad.
once again.

Happy 5th month anniversary to you darling.

i would never be able to live without you....
Saturday, June 27, 2009 19:53 back to top?

i miss you =(

darling isnt online today.

he has client meetings today.
and tmr i needa go school to reformat my vissttaa! my vista is officially screwed =X
LOL.

i still prefer vista over xp though.
oh well.

neways i miss darling.
hopefully i can meet him tmr or something?
i miss him reall baddd....
Monday, June 22, 2009 20:39 back to top?

end of second week.

i understand i have been super MIA-ing for a week.
i have an exhausting kids week.

let's start with tuesday.
Tuesday
went out with rohani.
studying with shopping after.
she was like telling me to meet her at 9 plus. ended up library opens at 10. lol. so we sat at the cafe and crap around.
library opened at 10 and we did studying.
i mean we really were studying.

we thought of studying till 12. ended up we stopped at 1130. lol.
so we went to the library toilet and took some photos.
i shall ask her to upload the photos soon. =D

then we decided to walk around at jp after that.
walk and walk.
and she's in love with flowery hairclips. lol.

i ended up buying nothing.
sorry sweettss!
next time okay.

hmm then we took photos while going up escalators.


and yeap we ate lunch.
and i tried the beef horfun. yummmyyy!
thanks for introducing to me dearr =D hehex.

wednesday
tutoring at 5pm.

met up with darling at 345pm.
he was not working that day and so, he accompanied to the place.
and we took pictures.




i thought i was teaching one kid, but ended up i teach 4. including the other siblings. it was chaotic at first.

knock knock.
no one answer.
then after that the mum came out and then asked the children to come out.
so ended up i have to study under the block.
oh well.

the siblings are kinda shy at first.
i am too actually.
but after some time, they are okay.
and since the other three siblings are in p3,p4,p5, then i dont think its appropriate for them to study about a b c.
so everytime before i have tuition, ill have to prepare some worksheets for the siblings.
hmm then erm the lessons are okay i guess, i ended up being super exhausted =S

thursday
urggh the peer support event.
i have to be up early.
have to be at pending lrt at 9 =S

idk whats wrong with me that day seriousluy.
i took the train and i asked darling cck mrt there's a joined bridge to lrt.
he told me its at the back of the train.
i didnt realise i was actually near to the front of the train.

i walked back to the train with a dumb face. lol
then at the back, i saw the sign lrt.
i really thought it was really at the back.
i walk and walk until i miss the staircase down to lrt =S
so i walked around the staircase and went down.

then at the lrt, i thought i saw i the lrt nearest to pending.
but instead i took the opposite one.
something is really not right with me that day =S

then reached lrt and i was still early.
waited for nas and jasmin and walked together to the student centre.

i was one of the facilitators.
and yeap, we did some preparations before that and the briefing.

and near to 11 plus, kids were coming in and they are really a loud bunch.
my group there were 5 people.
all about p3 to p5.

first activity was an introductory activity.
every peer support members there has to introduce themselves.
and all of us ended up saying the same thing.
"hi im _____. we are from sp" LOL.

then after the introductory, we played this game called 007.
it was my first time hearing that game.
and indeed it was fun.

then after that, we played this scavenger hunt kind of game.
have to go to every stations and answer some questions and then they will be given strips of puzzles.
seriously.
i told them to walk, they run.
i told them to not run, they still run.
confusing isnt it talking to childrens?

then okay did the puzzles and such.
then the next activity was.. doing mock sandwiches.
okay lar. they went "shopping" with paper money.

and they were told of the food pyramid and such.

then it was lunch and i didnt even got much time to eat my proper lunch.
the kids kept wanting to have water all those. so yeap.
i kept walking around and said, "excuse me. sorry. sorry. excuse me". LOL.

then after lunch was the real sandwich making and it was fun.
apples in sandwiches are kinda.. weird. hahax!
ohs and my group won second for the sandwhich making. lol.

then yeap we sat around and took photos.
and yeap. my group happened to have active kids.
one which is super loud. and when he shouts, its really deafening to my ear.
and second which likes to run around. u have to constantly called him over to the group. urgh.

the loud one.


some girls in the other group.


the only malay girl in my group.


after all, i had fun.
last was the debrief and i took my last picture =D

my sandwich and my name tag.


after all of them left, it was such a relieved.
we ourselves the facilitators and peer support members were having debriefing.
and we ended up going sidetracked talking about tribes and their cultures =S lol.

took the last picture of all the facilitators and such.
but unfortunately, i dont have the picture.
cleaned up and such and went home with super super tiredness.

friday
another tutoring lessons.
this time i got a few worksheets for the other three siblings.
i thought with the worksheets, i could concentrate more on the k2 girl.
but they ended up.. taking my energy more.
they were like,
"cikgu cikgu. ni macam mane?"
"cikgu susahhlaahh"

and i have to constantly telling them to do whatever the things that they know first.
and i gave them homeworks too.
and great i havent prepare any worksheets for the next tutoring lesson this coming wednesday.

saturday
a day free of kids. yay!

sunday
nieces and nephew came to celebrate father's day.
oh yeah;
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY
here are pictures.

my nieces and nephew


my nephew


nephew while watching night at the museum =S


nephew and i


the three of them with cake


that cake. with raisins =SSS


my dad's slice of the cake


tired. sleeping time.


so yeap.
my one-week filled.


aite im done here.
super tired.

random:
im in love with button down shirts♥♥
Saturday, June 20, 2009 21:39 back to top?

tired

okay seriously are other people making me jealous?
ive seen alot of couples walking near me or standing infront of me.
urgh.
kk i know im jealous because i cant be spending time with my boyfriend like other couples do.

finally after two days we're webcamming.
i miss you real bad.

hmm neways back to where we start.
today is my peer support event training.

i came super early.
i didnt know the journey from my home to pending lrt will take about 45 minutes?
so i reached super eary =S

waited at the bustop near the pending lrt mcm budak bodoh/minah poster. lol.

hmm then finally one of the peer support people called me.
and later did i know that his name was Benjamin.

then fast forward to inside the bukit panjang student centre.
while waiting for the staff incharge of the event, we introduced ourselves.

we played something like repeating each other's name kind of thing.

then the person incharge came and we were go through-ing this coming thursday event.
same place but meeting at 9am. earrllllyyyyy =S

so yeap we got along.
and reached home and im super tired.
thanks to my new gladiator heels, cause me blisters =S urgh.

and i realised one thing.
this whole week ill be dealing with childrens.

wednesday: tutoring with k2 children.
thursday: teaching children about healthy diet.
friday: tutoring.
sunday: my own nieces and nephew.

LOL. its a kid's week =D

aite im done now//
seeya

and i meeting darling this wednesday.
he has a day off training.
but even so, he's meeting his manager at about 6 plus.
how i wish one day he isnt gonna talk about work.
Monday, June 15, 2009 19:34 back to top?

one full weeks of stuffs.

first of all.
i miss my darling.
i repeat eh?
i miss my darling ridzman

okay lets get back to where we start.
oh yeah.
five days of straight activities.

monday:peer support event training. 1300 to 1600 at Pending LRT.
notes: i hope i could meet up with darling tmr.

tuesday: nothing actually. shopping with mum =D
notes: shopping for tutoring books.

wednesday:tutoring. 1700 to 1900 at Jurong West.
notes: hope darling is free?

thursday:peer support event.
notes: event on teaching kids healthy diet.

friday:tutoring at Jurong West. time to confirm.
notes: second lesson.

finally my one whole week of holiday is filled.
hmm ive done my mocoms revision paper.
and three maths mst papers.

im left with wireless tech and network and server management.
i hate wt for some reason or another.
thank god its only online quizzes.

hmm oh well, im done now.
darling isnt online for the second day.
today he has kompang and kenduri.

its okay.
i hope i really could meet him this week.

i miss you darling.

Sunday, June 14, 2009 19:54 back to top?

miss you♥

i miss darling.

i cant wait for holidays to end.
holidays end then i could at least meet up with darling.
but holidays end would means exams are gonna start.
haish.

i hope darling would still make time for me during some of my exams days.
i hope i could meet up with darling before exams starts.

i miss you darling.
i wanna spend some days with you.
watch movie with you. going shopping sprees with you.
holding your hands and see you smile and hear you laugh.

i really hope to see you soon.
well maybe before or after my tutoring starts?

i love you and i miss you real bad.
Saturday, June 13, 2009 19:42 back to top?

no fb-ing =(

aww im sad sad sad.
i cant play fb games.

they asked me to install the latest adobe flash player.
i did.
and they ask me to enable javascript.
i did too.
but still cant work... =(

oh well.

first week of holidays is coming to an end.
fast fast fast!

the worst of it all is that i havent even finish my mocoms revision notes =S
well okay im left with a lil tiny part of chapter 5 then im done.

then have to start studying for nsm and wt =S
eek i hate wt.
the coursebook is so... wordddyyy! eewww!

oh well.
going out with parents now.

and got a tutoring job =D
starting this wednesday.
happy happy xD
09:33 back to top?

watch

okay this is gonna be super random.

well you know why?
because i need a watch.

all my yellow watches are not working =(
one is officially spoilt.
one well....

they say pictures say a thousand words.


if you see cracks. yes youre right.
the left bottom crack was the first crack.
bang-ed on the school table =s thanks ar ash! your fault la! =X

then second was due to my itchy hand, i pressed on the crack.
but doesnt seem to cause the other long cracks.

the worst crack when i accidentally drop it.
and yes that explains the long long crack.
sad sad.

my favourite $2.90 watch =(
lol. oh well. see ya.

hmm i wonder where's darling.
he didnt sms me since morning.

and this is norlin =)

Wednesday, June 10, 2009 12:53 back to top?

you are the reason

its only the second day of the holiday and im missing my darling real bad.
well im having three weeks of holiday while darling starting his client meetings and such. so im pretty sure he's gonna be busy and not gonna be online at nights and such.

im gonna take one step at a time.
im gonna get myself busy with school work. its gonna drive me crazy eventually with studies but as long as i could keep my mind of worrying about darling.

yes im still worried for him.
im sorry darling. i know i shouldnt be.

remember what i told you yesterday?
yes you told me not to worry about other girls because it takes two hands to clap.
but im a girl, i know how girls think.
girls are capable of doing anything they want you know?

well okay i admit, im pampered in the most annoying way sometimes.
but thank god, you accepted me the way i am.

im afraid that sometimes, work is all you ever talk about.
money cant buy happiness sweets. you know that didnt you?

i hope that no matter what, it will never affect our relationship.

one more thing darling;
ive stopped going there.

ever since i know you from there, never it occurs in my mind to go there.
no matter how super dying bored i am, i will never go there.

i found you there and im happy with what i found.
i dont wanna go there looking for any other.

i promise you that i wont be going there anymore right?
yes im keeping my promise till forever.

i love you so much darling.
yes i got a letter from sp to try out the overseas itp.
well you said yourself, "if follow my heart, i dont want you to go"
no i wont be going anywhere syg.
ill be here in singapore.

if you miss me, grab your phone and call my number.
(yes i admit, i miss you too =D)
you know for sure im never too busy to answer your calls and sms.
(well except when im bathing =X)

and i also dont want other girls to be close to you when im not around.
yes i can be super protective when it comes to girls who are super menggatal. =X

darling, i love you and i miss you.
i hate holidays.
i wanna be with your side taking smiley pictures.
and tickle you till you wiggle or hold my hands real bad. hehex.
i miss your touch.
i miss seeing you laugh and smile.

never would it across in mind to break up.
i dont wanna go through another break up.
im happy with the things now.

ya Allah, panjangkanlah perhubungan kita..
sehingga ke akhir hayatku.

you showed me something that I couldn't see
you opened my eyes and you make me believe

you lift my feet off the ground, you spin me around
you make me crazier,crazier
feels like im falling and i'm lost in your eyes,
you make me crazier, crazier crazier
Tuesday, June 9, 2009 19:19 back to top?

dont wanna think about it

i really dont wanna think about anything.

cause i believe you're someone who could keep your words.
i trust you.
i know you know it too.

i dont want you to feel bad.
please,
give me time to get used to your working life.
give me time to get use to your busy schedules.

norlin
please be more understanding.
yes, you trust him.

but all you need is his time.
he cant give you the time like he has last time.
he said he's gonna busy for just a few months.
after that, lets hope everything will be better.

be strong.
go back to the old norlin who still couldnt believe that she meets her boyfriend once a month.=)
find things to do to keep yourself busy.

let him work hard for this few months.
if there is any changes in him, talk to him about it.
he sure will understand.

norlin really loves you ridzman.
norlin just cant get use to being far from you.
give her sometime okay.

norlin is very sorry for being selfish and only wanting ridzman for her own time.
norlin should understand that ridzman is working for their future together.

ridzman, forgive norlin for being so pampered.
forgive her for lying to you to tell you that she is fine.
but she is not. she has been crying all the while.

norlin doesnt want ridzman to feel bad.
norlin want ridzman to be happy for your new job.
norlin wants to be happy too.
but she needs time to get use to it.
please forgive norlin.

norlin loves ridzman.
norlin said; she's very sorry.....
Saturday, June 6, 2009 22:05 back to top?

exam timetable

ohs i forgot. exam timetable is out.



4 days straight =S
yiikkees!
Thursday, June 4, 2009 21:38 back to top?

missing in action II

okay seriously im super lazy to blog.

and so im gonna blog this in short forms.

sunday.
went to interview for a job at banquet desserts stall.
yes got it. starting work on tuesday.

monday.
normal lesson.
first injury of the week.
papercut.

tuesday.
normal lessons.
mocoms lab test : 84/100 =D
more of a discussion test =S
went home, was rushing to go to work.
bus was super late.
and the bus from home to jp was super slow.
i really felt like pushing the bus instead =S

work.
super tiring.
6pm till 10pm.
my legs felt super wobbly.
2nd injury of the week: middle right finger kena ice blender blade.(above blade)

wednesday.
work. supposingly whole day. 10 till 1o. yes that is crazy.
but thank god i was having those monthly pains so i asked to leave early.
and before that, i was only given 20 minutes break.
and i really felt like i couldnt work there anymore.
i was so hurt with the manager.
and i was so super tired of standing.

during break,
i didnt eat.
i went to the toilet and cry and talked to darling.
i cried so much while speaking to him.
i really wanted to let it all out.

then continued working till 4 then took taxi home.
i was really in pain.
that was when i decided..
I QUIT!

so yeap. ive decided to quit on my 2nd day of work.
i really couldnt take it.
reached home and at night, msn with darling.

darling said he was scared when he heard me cry that bad.
hahax. im so sorry darling. i just need to let it all out real bad.
i felt so alone.
so sad.
thank you for being there and telling me things to calm myself down.
thank you so much darling.
i really appreciate that.
third injury of the week: 2nd finger from the thumb right in the middle of the my finger. cant bend. once bend, it will bled. causes by the upper blade =S

thursday(today).
uh huh.
i was really super lazy to wake up today.
i finally woke up at about 645 =S
got ready really slow and felt super lazy to go to school.

went school took bus.
reached school and the teacher was late.
so at least i wont be late =D

nothing much in school.
mocoms: revision -end about 1 hour early
short break: went koufu with thik and isaac.
wt: short chapter -half an hour early.
lunch break: went to lib with minli for a lil while then meet up with the guys at fc1.ate chicken rice + chocolate blended bubble tea. oh i so love it.
went to library after that. played board games. first it was thik idea to play on something that we so dont understand! lol. returned and then borrowed pictionary instead. then me,minli,thik,isaac,ash and wayne.

played a few rounds and we instead came class half an hour late =S
lol.
but okay arh. had fun.
lesson ended about 15 minutes early.

meant to meet up with darling today to go shopping for his clothes.
he said he will be meeting me at Jurong East instead.
but he called me up and he said to meet him at Dover MRT station.

aww darling.
thanks so much.
it is really indeed a suprise to me.
and yay you're wearing a MAN UTD shirt =X hahax!

took 105 bus to IMM.
and we took photos with my neww phooneee =D



in the bus, i was super super noisy =S
sorry darling if i was talking to much. hahax.
reached IMM, we went straight to Giant and find for darling's business shirt.
after that, we went to look for ties that will match not only the newly bought shirt. after shopping, we went to mcdonald and shared a chocolate milkshake. then we decided to sit at the garden top in IMM and chat.
we talked about us.




syg, im sorry if im giving you less time to yourself.
im sorry if i kept wanting to meet you.
but i felt this week is my bad week and i cried so much this week.
and this is where i need you the most.

ive been thinking about what you said just now.
we only got together for only 4 months. but it seems like its 4 years.
you know things without me even saying it.
you know the things that could make me smile/blush/laugh.
you know when are my sensitive days.

i know things that can put the smiles on your face.
i could feel when u're around.
the feeling when i wanna sms, and there goes "message received: darling"
its somehting that i cant describe.

you saw my bad and terrible days.
you saw my happy and crazy days.
and i saw urs too.

im happy to be with you sayang.
i dont wanna be away from you.
although we're never get to see each other evryday, i know that ure always in my heart and mind. and i know im in yours too.

congrats for finally passing your test and soon you're gonna start your sales.
ill be supporting you all the way syg.
no matter what happens, i will always love you.
and i hope that you will still have time for me.

aite i guess im done now.
thanks md noor ridzman for making me a happy girl.
thanks for the suprise visit to Dover =D
thanks for being my bestest boyfriend♥
last but not the least,
thanks for loving me♥♥

plans for tmr: return work uniform =D finally i quit!
19:30 back to top?

missing in action

sorry for being "MIA-ing" for quite some time. i have been super lazy to blog.
hmm let me see.

i shall try to remember the things that happened so far.
the last time i blog was on my date with darling to Vivocity.
then.. on thursday.

nothing much i guess.
normal ordinary day with the four crazy people.

then friday.
normal lessons in the morning.
wireless technology practical test.

i got to do wireless instead.
was struggling. but managed to get 3 signatures.
out of which, maybe i manage to just pass?

me, thik and isaac was like the first batch.
after we're done, we decided to play Wii at Moberly.
fuunnn =D
tennis, boxing and bowling. lol.

went to have lunch with Rohani.
well, finally after so long.
went to eat at moberly.
here are the pictures.




after lunch was gems.
did nothing much for gems but only finishing up the movie before sunset
during the movie, i was sitting beside Vanna and we were both laughin so much because of the movie.
cause got this part,
the guy: i wanna tell you a secret
girl: what issit? *gets nearer*
*kiss*
then me and vanna was like, "tell secret also kiss" LOL.

then got another part.
the girl:*looking around the place*
guy: i wanna take your picture
*kiss*
LOL.
me and vanna laugh somemore.
"whaa take a picture also kiss"
"eh save money you know"
"i wanna take your picture la"
*mmuuahx muuahx* LOL! yes we are mad.

aite i guess im done for now. see yaa

Labels: 250th post, gems

Monday, June 1, 2009 21:35 back to top?