i gave up on both of you.

seriously i just cant win. both of u always have the right thing to say that makes my words go back and hurt me. so whats the use? i rather be left hurt just to see you guys happy. no i wont be angry or hate either of you behind ur back. i promised rmbr? but its okay. as a friend, all i want is u guys to be happy. nothing to do with me okay? do anything u guys want. as long as ure happy. dont have to care about me. i guess i have to start learning to be independent. then so be it.

i guess its time for me to wear a mask now. u guys broke ur mask. now its my turn. ill show that im happy with everything. its okay. im getting better at pretending. i dont need u guys to see through me. because i know u guys are very good with that. and so deserve to be with each other.

to let u guys as a couple or not?
it doesnt make any difference to me either anyway. its ur choice. u guys can make each other happy then okay. im not involve in anything. just one. dont forget that i exist in this world. let me talk to both of like how we used to do it before u guys are together. either one trying to ignore me, then very well. im gonna start hating.

to let you go.
should i let u go now so you could be together? or should i stay a little while longer? the heartache isnt there anymore. im losing a little grip i guess. but if u want more, im sorry i need time. but wait i dont think it matter anymore.since well, ill be wearing a mask =DD happy as the sunshine =))

i guess thats the end.
all things let out. i felt a little lighter. hatred isnt there anymore. i know its harsh for the things ive said to both of u. i just want to make my stand. both of can choose to ignore each other. but i guess fate bought u guys together. no one can change their fate. im sure of that. then so be it.

no there isnt a single tear drop. wow congrats to me. be happy u guys. i want to share that happiness too if possible.

if ure unhappy with me blogging about this. let me know. i will keep it as draft. for now. let it be in my blog as i want to keep it a little while longer.

thats all.
thanks for letting me open up everything. thanks for not hating. thanks for still being my friends. my wishes to you both. be happy. you guys ought to be =)