didnt see u first thing in the morning.. did u came late? or early? the only time i saw u is outside the class. with karthik. glad to see you smile in the morning. how i really miss you for the past two days im on MC. i guess u dont. lesson was fine. mdm theo went out to take some notes. i ended up staring at u from behind.... did u notice it? then sherr asked u to come over. talk about thik's birthday. u were standing infront of me. i didnt dare to look at ur eyes. idk why? maybe im shy? or maybe i didnt want u to see that i have a crush on u.... im just afraid you could read people's eyes... i tried looking somewhere else. but all i wanted to do was just stare into ur eyes... got lost in it and get u to notice.... after some talk with sherr, u walked away. walked to ur seat. i continued staring at u from behind...

mdm theo came in. gave some chapter 4 notes, and lesson starts. in between lesson, i still looked at u from behind. thats a 100% u didnt know. lesson ended, followed sherr to library. then went java class. i sat in a place that i was facing opposite of u when im doing my work. only when the lecturer is teaching, i looked at u. short glances. caught u once... were u wondering why i didnt stole lots of glances as last week? i dont know. im afraid of u now.... i reall am afraid that once u get to know my secret... ull just turn cold towards me... i dont want that mr a....

Im in a total mess. i want u to read my blog and know the whole story. but part of me dont want u to. because im afraid u'll turn cold. 10 mins break during java lesson, me and sherr plan on karthik's birthday bash. u helped with idk what. but whenever ure near me, im blushing. asked u to ask the class to sing birthday song. u wanted an easy job which is to carry the cake to karthik. no way xD when i was talking to u, i looked into ur eyes. no i cant read them. i just wanna look at it. but i find it hard somewhat. i dont wanna stare. its rude to stare okay? AMIRUL rmbr that! lol as if he reads my blog. as me and him, we rarely chat nowadays. except yday he asked me why am i not in bed yet since its weekdays and also its nearly 11. because i was chatting with daniel. he gave me lotx of advice. he told ive changed. to a lil complex minded. aka thoughtful. thanks to you mr a, i became thoughtful nowadays. anw, where were we?

so anw, go in class with the cake. and there's two. me and sherr asked him to choose one. and he chose black forest. the other one is strawberry. so yeah we decided to smack that strawberry cake on his face. i was the one who did it. lol. sherr was holding him down. okay i was like *holds cake* *smack cake on his face* oh it feels so good. lol. ended up kena kaysing computer. lol. sorrryyy!! anw, cleaned up and such, took the java test. and i think im nt doing so well. sorry daniel!! and my hand smells of the strawberry cake! after going through the answers, 5 mins break. went to get LOA for two days with karthik and sherr. and they were talking something secretly. oh well. went back to class and i found myself extremely quiet all over again. part of it was because i got headache. my sickness headache. the other part was thinking about u again..... stole glances with u again in the middle of lectures. other than that, i was just in a mess.

class ended, and u and karthik and the other guys were talking outside class. another class wanted to come in. and this stupid guy hit me at the back. no sorry! urrrghh. anw, then karthik approach me saying something like i need ashraf's help or something? huh?? i was like "err.. nvm ,sherr lets go" lol. i have no idea what they both plan. omg. ure online!! i dont know what to say. anw, took lift together and walked to mrt. sherr was talking to u at the front. then karthik and isaac and wayne. i was simply walking alone behind. since when have i become a loner! lol. actually no. im having headache. and i kept wishing in my head for u to take bus today... same bus. reached the escalator, i asked thik, "he didnt take bus?" then he go asked u"axx, u didnt take bus?" and idk what was his reply. i was pretty upset. well, maybe another time. *closes mr a msn chat* u took train while i took bus. last monday, i took train and u took bus.... when is it gonna be we both take train or bus?

waited for a while, and keeping a look out for u going up the escalator. no sign. bus came. board bus. stone and feeling rather upset. reached clementi. drowned myself with hsm3 songs. but my mind is still thinking about u. bus came. board then sit and stare at the sky and wonder....
"why is the sun shining so brightly today? why am i not as happy as the bright sun?"
"when are u gonna notice? why am i feeling this way? why am i being so thoughtful? its making my headaches worst. am i supposed to make it obvious? or im just supposed to continue and stare behind ur back? mr a ure really driving me crazy here....

reached home and ate lunch and played dj max 3 and here i am supposed to do my notes writing and such but instead blogging about u..... oh well, i guess time will tell. soon? or much later? i hope i could be close with you again tmr. sit beside u during maths lesson? or ask u to have lunch together? should i? maybe not..... haish.