what a day.
you know i dont wanna to leave you love.
i cant. and i wouldnt.
i want to be hurt and sad.
just so i am by your side. just so you are still my boyfriend.
find someone else?
that is just not the best option for me.
find someone better that could make me happier?
yes its true. first 6 months of a relationship makes you feel like your in heaven.
but what about after that? what if my new guy breaks my heart?
im supposed to let him go and find another?
if thats the case, it will never end.
but i chose not to leave you.
because i do not want to start over with someone else.
i just wanna be with you, ridzman.
went to talked at some garden.
i told you everything that was killing me inside.
everything that you deserves to know.
yes you are not the one to be blame entirely.
i know im at fault too by asking you some questions just at the wrong time.
when you told me to leave you.. just for a little while.
i cry. and cry and i couldnt control any of my tears anymore.
you kept quiet because u were feeling lost.
you didnt want me to suffer with you.
you didnt want me to be sad because of you.
you didnt want to be selfish.
but the hurt and the sadness i will be feeling if i were to leave you is much more worst than all those darling.
knowing you were there beside me when i cry soothe me.
knowing you too feel the hurt.
you then decided. i shall not leave you.
cause i wouldnt want to stop this relationship.
just for a little while or not, its just not gona happen.
you told me yes i dont have to leave you.
but studies first than bf.
because for you, family then gf.
fine.
if thats what you want.
ill do it just so long im still your gf and we are still together.
haish love.
please dont ever think of leaving anymore.
i dont even know if i can sleep properly tonight.
thinking about this when i got back from school, got me super tired + chest pain.
haish.
please let me sleep tonight....
and ill do neting ridzman.
to keep this relationship going.
ive been a sucker gf for the past week for not knowing what was happening.
but this week. i promise ill be a better gf and make your life a little better.
15 months of a relationship is just far too long to be ending right now.
i dont want this to ever end love.
please have faith in this relationship that we shared.
the relationship that i didnt even know would be this far.
knowing how we both met and fell in love without even seeing each other.
lets keep this relationship going.
lets keep this strong.
seeing you smile and laugh made my heart felt better before i left.
after that, i kept thinking about what you've said.
and my final decision. i wouldnt leave you. i couldnt.
because i just love you too much..
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