second blog of the day.
shit my head hurts after crying so much.
read dan's blog and well, he linked to our old blog.
our miie-n-hiim.bs.com blog.....
idk why but i went to click on it. seeing the skin itself could make me cry. and its even worst when i read the content. idk what makes me do it but i ended up reading it. only for the sept and oct months. in there, there's the word dear everywhere. then there's the time when we went on separate ways for two days and dan wrote something there which until now, it never fails to make me cry.
why am i not strong to really stop myself from crying everytime i rmbred of danielin?
why am i feeling like crying everytime i look outside my house and into the park that we went for our first date, our walks from school, the little pathway that we walked from school beside Jurong town, or everytime when i look at JSS as my bus pass by.... all reminds me of daniel and i cant control myself not to cry.
i thought being in a relationship is hard. but break ups are even worst. its been nearly 2 month since we broke up.... 2 months. what is 2 months compared to 3 years of memories? i can considered myself having a downhill life after i broke up with daniel. things didnt went my way.
then there was you. u were fine in the beginning. but now. repel repel and more repel..... what did i do to deserve all this? i got used by 5 guys. what a pathetic life. all i ever wanted from you, ashraf, is for you to understand how i feel...... i feel like i just wanna tell u the truth. get it over with. but what happens after that? im sure ure just gonna keep a further distance.... should i start thinking positive and think that ure not gonna go further away? heck no. im never that kind of person......
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