sometimes

sometimes i wish i have a group of girl friends that would ask me out.
or just one girl friend to tell everything out and go out for lunches and really have fun..?

i do really want to have a friend.
not that i dont have any.
i do. rohani and anna.
well,
rohani -- working full time and i cant spend time with her much nowadays.
anna -- well, she's somewhere at the other side of the world.

well, thats why i always envy when my boyfriend got to have more friends
i dont have that much of a friend network.
other than school. well my cca sucks.
work..? well not really that close?

sometimes its like im just too anti social.
i dont know who to make friends with.
i dont know how to secure the friendship..
but im so afraid of losing a friendship.

and you cant rely to your bf always.
im sure he needs his life too....
but me, in my position, i feel such a loner without my bf.
because i got no one else (well, other than my parents) to talk to, to go out with, to window shopping with....

i feel so down right now...
i do want to make friends but i dont know how....

i hope being 20 makes me friendlier?
i see all those girls that goes out with their friends and such and i feel sad/downright demoralised...?
and no one can understand how i am now, except my bf & rohani.
strict parents. no night life -- by means go out for dinner or such
be back home by 5 that kind of thing..

will a new friend accept me the way i am?
or will she finds me boring and walks away...
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