thanks for having lunch with me at Changi.
thanks for having to get lost in T1 :X
thanks for waiting for me for about 2-3 hours at Changi just for me to end work and go home with me.
thanks for the night darling.


three nights of work.
am i able to be strong and not cry myself to sleep?
yes its all for our future.
our future together.


but.
i dont like being alone.
i dont like to know that im sleeping and you're working.
i dont want u to stress up and be very tired to even talk to me.
im afraid.
afraid that ure not going to have time for me anymore.
urgh.


in the train back home;
i love to see the little things that i do that makes you smile and laugh.
your eyes twinkling.
your mouth wide with smiles and laughters.
all i wish i could see that every single day.


how i wish our life could just be based on smiles and laughters.
not frowns and sadness.
or arguments.
i admit;
yesterday the argument was my fault too.


im tired after a day at work, and i get irritated easily.
its not ur fault for being harsh to me.
i was just being too stubborn.
too stubborn to accept the fact that watever ure doing now is for our future together.
too selfish.
to only want u for me.


why cant i just accept the fact and just give you my support?
maybe im just too afraid.
afraid of losing you.
afraid that you dont have time for me anymore.
if you dont have time, then what happens to our relationship?
i dont want this to end.
not this. please no more...


sorry i cant give you my full support right now.
maybe later
when im beginning to accept the fact. slowly.
im doing things that its against my likeness.


i dont care about myself.
its only you that matters to me.
watever it is, do the things that is going to be good for the future.
no its nt that i dont bother.
its just, i dont want to think about it too much.
later arguments happen again.
no no more kiex.


at least not at this moment.
not this time.
not this month.
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