darling isnt online today either.
i miss him.
neways, went out with parents to jp today.
nothing much about it.
except im having this stupid thing on my left toe.
im not sure if you can see it or not.
but on my first toe, there's this thingy in my toe.
i have no idea how it got there even.
i didnt drop anything on that toe.
but it hurts.
as in whenever i move my feet when i sleep and it hits the pillow or the mattress,
i could feel the pain.
its irritating.
i cant even bend my toe much. urgh.
and i dont even know how to put medications to it.
because the thingy is inside my toe nail.
it even looks terrible on my toeee!!! urgh!
neways, i just thought of something.
tomorrow darling starting his job.
darling, good luck for tomorrow.
im sorry i dont think i can meet up with you in the morning to accompany you to work.
perhaps wednesday?
hmm.
4 or 5 years back,
i remembered.
"i dont really favour of dating/going relationships with older guys. they might be mature and might not understand your feelings."
i guess i was wrong.
got in a relationship that i thought could make me happy forever. but it didnt last.
now, being in a relationship with a guy which is 4 years older than me, makes me happier. happier in a way that its like he brings sunshine back to me after that break up.
he shows me how truly happy felt.
how comfortable i am to be with him.
how we could talk about anything under the sun and it seems like there was never an end to it.
how time passes so fast when im around him.
how i cant even have a second in a day without thinking of him.
how he never fails to make me smile,laugh and even blush even if we're only webcamming online.
darling ridzman,
i dont wanna be far from you.
i dont want to have a day not thinking of you.
i dont want to leave you nor do i want you to leave me.
ill be here supporting you with watever jobs you're taking.
thanks for accepting my points of views/opinions/suggestions.
thanks for seeing me in days that im ugly.
days that im very sensitive and cry so much when i am even beside you.
i need you.
i want you.
in my life forever.
i really mean it.
trust me, i wont leave you.
i will never will.
loving you forever.♥
forever and always...♥♥
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