when your're not here

you went out today with you bestiies.
im sad & angry//

not with you.
you did nothing at all.
its just me.
im sad because how i wish i accompany you and get to know your besties.
im angry because i couldnt be there with you.
how lonely you're gonnna feel.
or maybe i felt lonely.

my trust for you has beginning to increase as the day pass by.
but now im like hating myself for being so selfish.
selfish of me that all i wish we could always be together.

but i kept telling myself.
i know youre gonna be happy. i know youre gonna smile and there will be lots of laughters.
thats important for me right now. knowing that you'll be happy with your besties.

sometimes i feel like i envy you.
you get to be with your bestfriends most of the time.
i miss my own girlfriends.
rohani;liyana and even sherri...
im sorry if i have been a total ass ever since i got myself a bf.
im sorry if i didnt talk to you guys when you're offline...
i feel such a failure.
both as a friend and as a girlfriend.
even my bestfriend daniel is probably taking his nap.

i need your hug right now darling ridz.....
i needd to hear your voice.
i need to see you smile...

such a failure...............
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